No wonder God had me rest on Saturday, today was nonstop! I attended 2 church services, prayed with church family; rushed home for lunch, then off to Emmaus team meeting.
Yes, along with the rest of our team, I was anointed and prayed for by our pastors. When asked my prayer request for the upcoming weekend, "I desire to share when needed, and to be a blessing for the glory of God"!
On the move once again, to attend the closing ceremony for the Emmaus Walk that was held this weekend, the church was packed. As I walked up the center isle to receive communion, I spotted a familiar face. A face that I hadn`t seen in many years, actually decades; was it really Carol?
Yes, thank you God, she was indeed Carol, a friend of my youth. After a gentle shoulder tap and identity check, two long lost friends shared a long over due embrace.
We exchanged contact info and agreed to get together, so that we could catch up. I`m embarrassed to admit that she reminded me of her son, my God child! No, no, no I had truly forgotten, so many years had passed, divorce, my own family secrets, and addiction, had my life been so distracted that I didn`t even remember this special honor.
Have I failed as a Godmother, maybe God arranged this special reunion, in church, allowing me time to pray and ponder how to handle this situation. However, before getting out of bed this morning, God reminded me of my niece Mandy, children of friends, Jason, and Ginger, other God-children that I`ve neglected or lost contact with. What are the obligations of a God-mother?
What had these friends and parents of years ago, seen in me? Something that I didn`t even know was there? Something that I didn`t allow to surface and inhibited growth? Had my God-given free will, allowed me to smother this God fire that friends saw in me?
Now, God what do I do, pray, pray, pray, sounds like the right place to start! There is still time to correct this terrible neglect on my part...........this is heavy! Thank you God, for loving me through the tough times in my life and rekindling that intense fire of desire for YOU.
Matthew 28-19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the every end of the age.
Wow... heavy indeed. Responsibility reclaimed. Blessings
ReplyDeleteLinda I think is amazing what you do and I am sure lots of people out there feel the same way, but is never to late and we do have a eternity to repair our mistakes.
ReplyDeleteIf everyone who read your blog feel the same like I do, that means you bring a beam of light in everyone's heart every single day, and that is a blessing. Will be nice that all the people who read your blog to write their feelings, their worries and their thoughts. God bless you, your neighboor Gabi.