Colossians 2:6-7 So then just as you received Christ Jesus as LORD, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and over-flowing with thankfulness.
What a true blessing it has been to write this blog, oh yea, I could have brushed off the thought of making a commitment to write, but would I have been disobedient in that decision? I believe so! As I sit here on the eve of a new year and reflect on the significance of this blog and it`s effect on my life, I am amazed and thankful. God has pierced my heart, soul and emotions encouraging and directing me to walk in and through chambers of sin and darkness deep within. As if that wasn`t terrifying and invasive enough, He has me sharing with the world as the author of His blog! Really, Father God?
Isaiah 55:8-9 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thought than your thoughts."
Guess, my little pea-brain just can`t fathom the wonders and plans of His great love! I recall the day that Pam and I were working on a presentation for an Emmaus talk, when she showed me the stats for this blog, I didn`t even know they existed. I originally believed that this blog would be an account of praying encounters, as I traveled day by day in this incredible journey of life. Wrong, the blog soon took on a new life and directions; imagine that my plans weren`t God`s plans!
Jeremiah 29 11-14 For I know the plans I have for you, "declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD, " and will bring you back from captivity.........
I looked at this blog as my personal journal and knew that a few friends and niece Mandy, checked it out occasionally. In less than two year of compliance to this commitment to write, over 4700 people around the world have viewed my journal; on a regular basis people from the United States, Russia, Germany, China, Netherlands, Poland, United Kingdom, Slovenia, Australia and India check in on my journey, as I walk hand-in-hand walk with JESUS! I know that in accordance to Internet stats, 4700 views is not astronomical, but for a 60 year old wife, grandmother, sister, aunt and friend in Earleville, Maryland USA, it`s over the top incredible, thank you, God!
Isaiah 44:3-4 For I will pour water on the thirsty land, and streams on the dry ground; I will pour out my Spirit on your offspring, and my blessings on your descendants. They will spring up like grass in a meadow, like poplar trees by flowing streams.
Father God as we approach the year 2012 of our LORD, I pray that you will continue to allow me to witness for your glory, as I am strengthened and rooted deeper into an intimate( IN TO ME) relationship with you! Thank you for the pruning and the in depth healing; you are the potter and I am the clay, mold me and shape me.! I pray that you have mercy and forgive our ignorance. Father God, please bless your people......my family, my friends, my neighbors and the world. AMEN...
May God Bless and strengthen all who visit His blog, HAPPY NEW YEAR, AMEN........Linda
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Making Christmas Candy Day 374
Proverbs 10:4 Lazy hands make a man poor, but diligent hands bring wealth. Yesterday, I felt the riches of Jesus, as I helped my dear friend Rose. For many years Rose has gifted many loved ones and friends with homemade candy at Christmas. Due to the crippling arthritis that has taken residency in her aging body, she needed my hands and feet to continue her Christmas tradition. Rose directed my steps from the comfort of her chair, as I delighted in the instructions and the conversation! While the chocolate slowly and precisely melted to perfection, we where serenaded by a 1940ish style In The Mood Christmas CD. For hours, Rose flipped through pages of memories, as I hung onto every treasured memento that she shared; stocking filled with fruit nuts and pennies in the toe, gifts of love and compassion that warmed the soul. A love filled home with one daughter, 2 sons, a hard working father and an Italian speaking mother, surviving in a county embarking on the wings of a world war. A life of simplicity and a place at their family table for all, strangers welcomed and fed. A cadet nurse dancing outside with a young friend that would soon experience the devastation of the impending war.
I thank God, for the time that I have to provide assistance to Rose; the gift of time and ones self is the most precious gift that we can give during this season of love, in honor of our savior Jesus Christ! The hours that Rose and I spent together was priceless, thank you God.Candy is done, off for another special visit. I first met 87 year old Dorothy, when she walked into my new and exciting facility, Curves an exercise program for women, in 2003. At the time, Dorothy was a mere babe of 79 years young; she showed up on opening day ready to sign on the dotted line to become a member of this new exercise program.
Her excitement and enthusiasm were contagious, she was joining to improve her health and to prove a point to family members. You see, Dorthy had recently visited with nieces, who had offered her a wheel chair. Imagine that, they thought that I couldn't`t walk on my own, she was appalled! What a joy to witness the strength and stamina that Dorothy`s dedication acquired, not to mention the encouragement that she provided for women of all ages.
My Curves franchise is now a memory, but Dorothy is still going strong. Once I closed the doors, she transferred her membership to another location. With pride and dignity she shared that she now has 1320 workouts under her belt; I created a work-out diva! Linda, I`m in pretty good shape, except for a little swelling in my ankles, what do you think? Dorothy, I think that is amazing and that I am truly blessed; God provided the perfect opportunity for us to meet! Thank you, Father God!
Psalm 139:14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made: your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
You go Dorothy, use it or lose it! Before leaving Dorothy, I knelt in front of her chair, joined hands and together we prayed and thanked God for his mighty blessings.
Two days later as Rick and I were scurring around to finish our Christmas shopping, I ran into another dear friend, Tom Walmsley. Tom and Eleanor have been friends for decades, I went to school with their son, David, we were good buddies. However, through marriages and divorces Dave and I have lost touch, but not the case with his mom and dad. Over the years I would always just happen to run into the two of then, rarely seeing one without the other.
Today Tom was traveling alone, when I inquired about his side-kick, he said she`s at home. As I stared into his eyes, I hear much more than he shared, I asked if it would be alright to stop in. Today was the day, I put actions into my concerns for my life-time friend, and pulled in the drive way!
Still in her night clothes and a warning me not to get to close, I was greeted with a smile of love and compassion. My visit was short but packed full of love, as we reminisced and brought one another up to speed about our families! The Walmsley`s have been a very low maintenance friendship that has been a blessings for more than forty some years. I remember, the first time that Eleanor met Rick, she told him that she always wanted me to marry David; Rick was at a loss for words, I took it as a compliment!
Father God, I thank you for the gift of free-time! As I grow older and perhaps wiser, I thank you for the love and friendships that have knocked on the open doors of my heart. Thank you, for your never failing love, your daughter, Linda.
Now from Mom`s favorite--Psalms 23:6 Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever. Amen!
Friday, December 9, 2011
Bring it to the Light Day 373
Psalms 36:9 For with you is the fountain of life; in your light we see light. How often do our feeling and emotions keep us in the dark, feelings of guilt, shame, brokenness, rejection, fear, anger and lies! Jesus Christ paid the debt in full for all of these lies, strongholds and our sins; do you believe it, or is it just head knowledge? Grace is not only God`s undeserved mercy and favor, it is also unearned and can never be repaid.
Romans 13:8 Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for he who loves his fellowman has fulfilled the law.
Recently I shared the struggles that my family is dealing with as we seek to help my niece Kim, with her relapse into drug addiction. For weeks and weeks my brother, Ernie and my sister-in-law, Peggy kept Kim`s relapse a secret from me. Where they holding on to the guilt and shame for Kim, hoping to pay her debt? Not possible, however exposing the secret to the light and truth begins the healing process. John 8:32 Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.
Addiction is addiction is addiction, all based on lies that opens the door for Satan to control our thoughts and actions. Drawing us away from the truth of God`s love! Temporarily, I was sucked into the drama, of Kim`s addiction. What can I do, how can I help her; the pain, sadness and disappointment were overwhelming. Could this relapse lead to her death? Should I fly to Kentucky to offer love and support for the family? God says no, stay home and trust me to handle it.
Friday evening I attended a healing service, offering and receiving prayers on Kim`s behalf, trusting God! This prayer service allowed me to stand firm on the promises of God the Father. Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Hebrews 4:16 Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. Romans 8:35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble of hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword. 2 Timothy 1:7 For God did not give us the spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline. Colossians 3:2 Set your mind on things above, not on earthly things. Ephesians 3:12 In him through faith in him we may approach God with freedom and confidence.
Father God your timing is impeccable, just received a phone call from one of my Emmaus sisters, Marcy, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you........my heart is pounding with the presence of the HOLY SPIRIT.......Isaiah 55:8-9 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." Father God, thank you for the love by which so faithfully drench and penetrate our souls! God, please bless Kim and Marcy`s daughter Amy, AMEN!
Romans 13:8 Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for he who loves his fellowman has fulfilled the law.
Recently I shared the struggles that my family is dealing with as we seek to help my niece Kim, with her relapse into drug addiction. For weeks and weeks my brother, Ernie and my sister-in-law, Peggy kept Kim`s relapse a secret from me. Where they holding on to the guilt and shame for Kim, hoping to pay her debt? Not possible, however exposing the secret to the light and truth begins the healing process. John 8:32 Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.
Addiction is addiction is addiction, all based on lies that opens the door for Satan to control our thoughts and actions. Drawing us away from the truth of God`s love! Temporarily, I was sucked into the drama, of Kim`s addiction. What can I do, how can I help her; the pain, sadness and disappointment were overwhelming. Could this relapse lead to her death? Should I fly to Kentucky to offer love and support for the family? God says no, stay home and trust me to handle it.
Friday evening I attended a healing service, offering and receiving prayers on Kim`s behalf, trusting God! This prayer service allowed me to stand firm on the promises of God the Father. Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Hebrews 4:16 Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. Romans 8:35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble of hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword. 2 Timothy 1:7 For God did not give us the spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline. Colossians 3:2 Set your mind on things above, not on earthly things. Ephesians 3:12 In him through faith in him we may approach God with freedom and confidence.
Father God your timing is impeccable, just received a phone call from one of my Emmaus sisters, Marcy, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you........my heart is pounding with the presence of the HOLY SPIRIT.......Isaiah 55:8-9 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." Father God, thank you for the love by which so faithfully drench and penetrate our souls! God, please bless Kim and Marcy`s daughter Amy, AMEN!
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Excuse Me, I have To P Day 372
From today`s title you might think that I was scurrying off to relieve myself, but not the case. On the contrary `I`m purposefully filling myself with some vital "P" words. Pray, proclaim, peace, praise, purpose, priority, perseverance and patience; what do you think, a pretty impressive list.
For several days I`ve been scratching and scribbling notes and scriptures references everywhere in preparation for this post, leading me to believe that this message is of signicants for yours truly! Perhaps, God has lots for me to ponder and procure.
For weeks "prayer" has occupied my focus, have I finally preceded the urgency and value of prayer; oh yeah! James 1:5-6 If any of you lack wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. Thank you Father, as for me, I prefer to stand on your promises, I will pray without ceasing! Philippians 4:4-7 Rejoice in the LORD always, I will say it again; Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The LORD is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
I will "proclaim" the good news; Luke 2: 9-11 Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the LORD. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger. Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying, "Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rest."
The "peace" of the earth will rest upon Jesus! John 10:27-30 "My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they fellow me. I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one can snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all; no one can snatch them out of my Father`s hand. I and the Father are one."
I will " praise" the The LORD, Nehemiah 9:5..........."Stand up and praise the LORD your God, who is from everlasting to everlasting." "Blessed be your glorious name, and may it be exalted above all blessing and praise. You alone are the LORD. You made the heavens, even the highest heavens, and all their starry host, the earth and all that is on it, the seas and all that is in them. You give life to everything, and the multitudes of heaven worship you.
Our "purpose" is to love and praise the LORD; as God inhales our praise His exhales his presence! Think of that next time your singing a praise song, your thoughts will erupt into a full blown smile of delight and joy! Keep a song of praise in your heart and smile in your soul, perhaps someone will inquire, opening the door to witness for the LORD! Matthew 22:37-40 Jesus replied; "Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it; "Love your neighbor as yourself. All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandment."
Our "priority" is to focus first on God then all things in our life will fall into alignment! Luke 11:27-28 As Jesus was saying these things, a woman in the crowd called out, "Blessed is the mother who gave you birth and nursed you." He replied, "Blessed rather are those who hear the word of God and obey it." Luke 16:14-15 The Pharisees, who loved money, heard all this and were sneering at Jesus. He said to them, "You are the ones who justify yourselves in the eyes of men, but God knows your hearts. What is highly valued among men is detestable in God`s sight." Father God, thank you for so many years, I focused on things of the flesh, rejecting your grace and mercy!
Father,thank you for your "perseverance," knowing that someday the scales would be removed from my eyes! Romans 5:1-5 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our LORD Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into his grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our suffering, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
As needs and struggles arise I will "patiently" wait upon the LORD. Philippians 4:10-13 I rejoice greatly in the LORD that at last you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you have been concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Lots to ponder! Psalms 86:11-13 Teach me your way, O LORD, and I will walk in your truth; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name. I will praise you, O LORD my God, with all of my heart; I will glorify your name forever. For great is your love toward me; you have delivered me from the depths of the grave. AMEN.....thanks Father, for all the extra "P" word that you added to your message!
For several days I`ve been scratching and scribbling notes and scriptures references everywhere in preparation for this post, leading me to believe that this message is of signicants for yours truly! Perhaps, God has lots for me to ponder and procure.
For weeks "prayer" has occupied my focus, have I finally preceded the urgency and value of prayer; oh yeah! James 1:5-6 If any of you lack wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. Thank you Father, as for me, I prefer to stand on your promises, I will pray without ceasing! Philippians 4:4-7 Rejoice in the LORD always, I will say it again; Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The LORD is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
I will "proclaim" the good news; Luke 2: 9-11 Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the LORD. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger. Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying, "Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rest."
The "peace" of the earth will rest upon Jesus! John 10:27-30 "My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they fellow me. I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one can snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all; no one can snatch them out of my Father`s hand. I and the Father are one."
I will " praise" the The LORD, Nehemiah 9:5..........."Stand up and praise the LORD your God, who is from everlasting to everlasting." "Blessed be your glorious name, and may it be exalted above all blessing and praise. You alone are the LORD. You made the heavens, even the highest heavens, and all their starry host, the earth and all that is on it, the seas and all that is in them. You give life to everything, and the multitudes of heaven worship you.
Our "purpose" is to love and praise the LORD; as God inhales our praise His exhales his presence! Think of that next time your singing a praise song, your thoughts will erupt into a full blown smile of delight and joy! Keep a song of praise in your heart and smile in your soul, perhaps someone will inquire, opening the door to witness for the LORD! Matthew 22:37-40 Jesus replied; "Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it; "Love your neighbor as yourself. All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandment."
Our "priority" is to focus first on God then all things in our life will fall into alignment! Luke 11:27-28 As Jesus was saying these things, a woman in the crowd called out, "Blessed is the mother who gave you birth and nursed you." He replied, "Blessed rather are those who hear the word of God and obey it." Luke 16:14-15 The Pharisees, who loved money, heard all this and were sneering at Jesus. He said to them, "You are the ones who justify yourselves in the eyes of men, but God knows your hearts. What is highly valued among men is detestable in God`s sight." Father God, thank you for so many years, I focused on things of the flesh, rejecting your grace and mercy!
Father,thank you for your "perseverance," knowing that someday the scales would be removed from my eyes! Romans 5:1-5 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our LORD Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into his grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our suffering, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
As needs and struggles arise I will "patiently" wait upon the LORD. Philippians 4:10-13 I rejoice greatly in the LORD that at last you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you have been concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Lots to ponder! Psalms 86:11-13 Teach me your way, O LORD, and I will walk in your truth; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name. I will praise you, O LORD my God, with all of my heart; I will glorify your name forever. For great is your love toward me; you have delivered me from the depths of the grave. AMEN.....thanks Father, for all the extra "P" word that you added to your message!
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Heaven@ God.org Day 371
Matthew 13:14-16 In them is fulfilled the prophecy of Isaiah: "You will be ever hearing but never understanding; you will be ever seeing but never perceiving. For this people`s heart has become calloused; they hardly hear with their ears, and they have closed their eyes. Otherwise they might see with their eyes, hears with their ears, understand with their hearts and turn, and I would heal them. But blessed are your eyes because they see, and your ears because they hear.
As we approach the season of Advent, the coming of Christ, it is often a season of great despair and depression for many. A time of great sadness, as we mourn loved ones that have passed; creating a void that often opens a pit of emptiness. Satan delights in our sorrow and often attempts to disrupt the joy of Christmas. However, to diminish Satan`s success, what if we could send off heaven-bound e-mails to our loved ones! Of course you`d have to e-mail early to avoid the Christmas rush; I would imagine that Heaven is pretty busy in preparation for "The Heavenly Birthday Bash," for JESUS!
I believe that writing an e-mail would help to heal the pain of separation and our loneliness; just as this blog has opened my soul for the healing and restoration that I have required. So just who would be on your e-mail list and what would you tell them? For me. this might be a long list but if you`ve got time, here I go.
First I`d tell my mom, that a piece of me died when she passed, but Rick has loved me through it. Also mom, God forgave me for the dreadful secret that I kept from you. To my brother Robin, I`d shared that after 40 some years, God had me forgive Larry Alexander. I`d tell daddy, that I understand about his alcoholism and that I will soon celebrate 6 years of sobriety. I`d tell pop-pop Guhl that my brother Ernie has a big belly just like his! To all of my aunts,uncles and cousins, I wished that I would have known you better. David, you where my favorite cousin, oops second cousin, was it because of your accident that you always had time for family?
To Brice my first love and father of our aborted child, I forgive you and will always love you! It took almost 40 years to get you out of my dreams. To my unborn baby, I`m so sorry, so very sorry, I love you so much, please forgive me.........I anxiously await our heavenly reunion! To Brice`s mother, Shirley, I`d say thank you for teaching me to openly love.
Mom-mom Guhl even though I was only 3 when you died, I held onto the pain and separation anxiety for years and years. Struggling for decades, unaware of how much I mourned your sudden death. Mom-mom and Pop Frazer, I have finally seen pictures of both of you, I cried and cried for the love that I never knew.
Joe and Barbara Mullen, thank you for your family of love and the prayers, we have a loving faithful, God! Jay, rest in peace, Garfield! Jimmy, your children are okay, you where a good father and wonderful friend. Shirley, Bobby is just killing time; Jen loves and takes good care of him. I thank God for our friendship....Rick-Mon misses you, too. Karen, I still feel your hand on my shoulder, reminding me that I`d had done so good with sobriety, thanks for the on-going life-time of encouragement.
Mike, Rose is slowing down, but she is a determined and proud little Italian women. Smoke, we`ve never had another neighbor like you. You were like a dad to Rick and I. Do you have a garden in heaven? Mary, I know that your children, grand-children and great grand-childen will struggle to get through Christmas without you, the first is the most difficult.
Father God, thank you for allowing me to write your blog and for the intense healing that I receive. I pray that if anyone is holding on to grief, pain and sorrow for a loved one, that they write them an e-mail......just be sure to have the kleenex box handy!
Isaiah 53:3-5 He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering. Like one from whom men hide their faces he was despised, and we esteemed him not. Surely he took up our infirmities and carried our sorrows, yet we considered him stricken by God, smitten by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our trangressions, he was crushed for our iniquities, the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are HEALED. AMEN.........................I have great expectations for a wonderful, love-filled and joyous CHRISTMAS!
As we approach the season of Advent, the coming of Christ, it is often a season of great despair and depression for many. A time of great sadness, as we mourn loved ones that have passed; creating a void that often opens a pit of emptiness. Satan delights in our sorrow and often attempts to disrupt the joy of Christmas. However, to diminish Satan`s success, what if we could send off heaven-bound e-mails to our loved ones! Of course you`d have to e-mail early to avoid the Christmas rush; I would imagine that Heaven is pretty busy in preparation for "The Heavenly Birthday Bash," for JESUS!
I believe that writing an e-mail would help to heal the pain of separation and our loneliness; just as this blog has opened my soul for the healing and restoration that I have required. So just who would be on your e-mail list and what would you tell them? For me. this might be a long list but if you`ve got time, here I go.
First I`d tell my mom, that a piece of me died when she passed, but Rick has loved me through it. Also mom, God forgave me for the dreadful secret that I kept from you. To my brother Robin, I`d shared that after 40 some years, God had me forgive Larry Alexander. I`d tell daddy, that I understand about his alcoholism and that I will soon celebrate 6 years of sobriety. I`d tell pop-pop Guhl that my brother Ernie has a big belly just like his! To all of my aunts,uncles and cousins, I wished that I would have known you better. David, you where my favorite cousin, oops second cousin, was it because of your accident that you always had time for family?
To Brice my first love and father of our aborted child, I forgive you and will always love you! It took almost 40 years to get you out of my dreams. To my unborn baby, I`m so sorry, so very sorry, I love you so much, please forgive me.........I anxiously await our heavenly reunion! To Brice`s mother, Shirley, I`d say thank you for teaching me to openly love.
Mom-mom Guhl even though I was only 3 when you died, I held onto the pain and separation anxiety for years and years. Struggling for decades, unaware of how much I mourned your sudden death. Mom-mom and Pop Frazer, I have finally seen pictures of both of you, I cried and cried for the love that I never knew.
Joe and Barbara Mullen, thank you for your family of love and the prayers, we have a loving faithful, God! Jay, rest in peace, Garfield! Jimmy, your children are okay, you where a good father and wonderful friend. Shirley, Bobby is just killing time; Jen loves and takes good care of him. I thank God for our friendship....Rick-Mon misses you, too. Karen, I still feel your hand on my shoulder, reminding me that I`d had done so good with sobriety, thanks for the on-going life-time of encouragement.
Mike, Rose is slowing down, but she is a determined and proud little Italian women. Smoke, we`ve never had another neighbor like you. You were like a dad to Rick and I. Do you have a garden in heaven? Mary, I know that your children, grand-children and great grand-childen will struggle to get through Christmas without you, the first is the most difficult.
Father God, thank you for allowing me to write your blog and for the intense healing that I receive. I pray that if anyone is holding on to grief, pain and sorrow for a loved one, that they write them an e-mail......just be sure to have the kleenex box handy!
Isaiah 53:3-5 He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering. Like one from whom men hide their faces he was despised, and we esteemed him not. Surely he took up our infirmities and carried our sorrows, yet we considered him stricken by God, smitten by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our trangressions, he was crushed for our iniquities, the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are HEALED. AMEN.........................I have great expectations for a wonderful, love-filled and joyous CHRISTMAS!
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Fragrance of Jesus Day 370
2 Corinthian 2:14-15 But thanks be to God, who always leads us in triumphal procession in Christ and through us spreads everywhere the fragrance of the knowledge of him. For we are to God the aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing.
What a comforting thought, to God I am the aroma of His son, Jesus Christ! By the grace of God we walk in the sweet fragrance of Jesus......thank you, God! Does this empower and require us to shower the world with bouquets of Jesus. As Christians do we take this blessing for granted; applying only a little dab of Jesus cologne on Sunday? Or do we walk the walk, talk the talk and dispense the loving-scent of Jesus each and every day, no matter where we are? As for me and I friends I desire to smell of the high heavens of Jesus, without fear of offending or worry of my political correctness!
Several times this week I was present in the delightful aroma of Jesus. Sunday morning when I attended worship at Connections Church, the aromatic flavor of Jesus filled the room, quenching my senses for His presence. Later that evening I attended a prayer and worship service for Joseph Feeley, a young man battling terminal brain cancer. Doctors have given up on Joseph and their ability to heal him. That evening with worship music and prayer there was life and hope as hundreds of believers perfumed the prayer service with Jesus.
Jeremiah 31:16-17 This is what the LORD says: "Restrain your voice from weeping and your eyes from tears, for your work will be rewarded," declares the LORD. "They will return from the land of the enemy. So there is hope for your future," declared the LORD. "Your children will return to their own land."
Tuesday evening as I drive a rambunctious group of middle-schoolers home from Generation Station, we rode up on a terrible accident. A phone call soon alerted me that there was a fatality, as the children witnessed the horror of the moment, my first response was to pray. Demanding attention, the aroma of Jesus filled the van as I prayed for the victims and their families; a silence and reverence filled the van, thank you God! With only one more night of driving the van full of teens home, did God use this accident and provide an opportunity for me to witness on His behalf. Long after I`ve stopped driving them home, will they remember that Miss Linda prayed and cried out to God for a strangers behalf? Thank you, Father God.....
Psalm 23:4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for your are with me; your rod and your staff they comfort me.......
Father God I pray for the Feeley family and the accident victims and their families, knowing that thy will, will be done. Bless and keep them, drawing them ever closer to YOU! AMEN......
What a comforting thought, to God I am the aroma of His son, Jesus Christ! By the grace of God we walk in the sweet fragrance of Jesus......thank you, God! Does this empower and require us to shower the world with bouquets of Jesus. As Christians do we take this blessing for granted; applying only a little dab of Jesus cologne on Sunday? Or do we walk the walk, talk the talk and dispense the loving-scent of Jesus each and every day, no matter where we are? As for me and I friends I desire to smell of the high heavens of Jesus, without fear of offending or worry of my political correctness!
Several times this week I was present in the delightful aroma of Jesus. Sunday morning when I attended worship at Connections Church, the aromatic flavor of Jesus filled the room, quenching my senses for His presence. Later that evening I attended a prayer and worship service for Joseph Feeley, a young man battling terminal brain cancer. Doctors have given up on Joseph and their ability to heal him. That evening with worship music and prayer there was life and hope as hundreds of believers perfumed the prayer service with Jesus.
Jeremiah 31:16-17 This is what the LORD says: "Restrain your voice from weeping and your eyes from tears, for your work will be rewarded," declares the LORD. "They will return from the land of the enemy. So there is hope for your future," declared the LORD. "Your children will return to their own land."
Tuesday evening as I drive a rambunctious group of middle-schoolers home from Generation Station, we rode up on a terrible accident. A phone call soon alerted me that there was a fatality, as the children witnessed the horror of the moment, my first response was to pray. Demanding attention, the aroma of Jesus filled the van as I prayed for the victims and their families; a silence and reverence filled the van, thank you God! With only one more night of driving the van full of teens home, did God use this accident and provide an opportunity for me to witness on His behalf. Long after I`ve stopped driving them home, will they remember that Miss Linda prayed and cried out to God for a strangers behalf? Thank you, Father God.....
Psalm 23:4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for your are with me; your rod and your staff they comfort me.......
Father God I pray for the Feeley family and the accident victims and their families, knowing that thy will, will be done. Bless and keep them, drawing them ever closer to YOU! AMEN......
Sunday, November 20, 2011
No News Is Good News, Wrong! Day 369
On October 10, 2010 I shared the story "My baby Girl," about my niece Kim and her struggles with drug addiction; an account of our love and relationship. That story had a happy ending but this one, not so much! After nearly 2 years of sobriety, Kim fell off the wagon and fell hard into an existence that I can hardly fathom. She was well on the road to what you might call "normal," but in the life of addiction and dysfunction what is normal?
According to Webster, normal is conforming to the standard or the common type; usual. Average in any psychological trait, as intelligence or personality. Free from any mental disorder.
In a life of sobriety we must choose and learn to receive a new normal. With nearly 6 years of sobriety under my belt, it is difficult for me to comprehend how Kim allowed herself to return to this life of deadly bondage. However, in recovery this is often the norm, it is not uncommon to have 6-7 unsuccessful attempts at recovery. Is it when the addict doesn`t stay connected to a 12 step program or maintain an intimate relationship with God, that we open the door for Satan to do his dirty deeds?
I have known for months and months that Kim was struggling but nothing I said would penetrate the hold of her demons. It is by the grace of God that I have successfully achieved nearly 6 years of sobriety. Romans16:20 The God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet. The grace of our Lord Jesus be with you. Even though I did not participate in a 12 step program, it is as if God has taken me by the hand every step of the way; one hour at a time, one day at a time, one month at a time one, and one year at a time. Would that be "The Hand of God Program," wanna join? Thank you, Father God! John 8:31-32...Jesus said, "If you hold to my teachings, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."
I urged Kim to participate in a 12 step program and to get connected in a good church, however my advice fell to a deaf ear. Instead she was held captive by strongholds and lies, trying to battle an earthly authority that was beyond her will and her power. 1 John 3:7-8 Dear children, do not let anyone lead you astray. He who does what is right is righteous, just as he is righteous. He who does what is sinful is of the devil, because the devil has been sinning from the beginning. The reason the Son of God appeared was to destroy the devil`s work.
Father God, I love Kim so much....... it is so painful to know what is happening to her, Father I pray that you will send angels to rescue from from the evil grip that Satan has on her. Father God, please protect my baby girl! Father you are the great physician please heal her brokenness and restore her for your glory. PLEASE FATHER! Father, I pray that you will prepare Kim`s entire family to the fight for her life! Philippians 4:13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Psalm 103:2-5 Praise the LORD; O my soul, and forget not all his benefit---who forgives all your sins and heals all your disease, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desire with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle`s.
Thank you for this time with you Father God......I pray that anyone who reads this will pray for "My Baby Girl, Kim." thank you, AMEN, Linda
According to Webster, normal is conforming to the standard or the common type; usual. Average in any psychological trait, as intelligence or personality. Free from any mental disorder.
In a life of sobriety we must choose and learn to receive a new normal. With nearly 6 years of sobriety under my belt, it is difficult for me to comprehend how Kim allowed herself to return to this life of deadly bondage. However, in recovery this is often the norm, it is not uncommon to have 6-7 unsuccessful attempts at recovery. Is it when the addict doesn`t stay connected to a 12 step program or maintain an intimate relationship with God, that we open the door for Satan to do his dirty deeds?
I have known for months and months that Kim was struggling but nothing I said would penetrate the hold of her demons. It is by the grace of God that I have successfully achieved nearly 6 years of sobriety. Romans16:20 The God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet. The grace of our Lord Jesus be with you. Even though I did not participate in a 12 step program, it is as if God has taken me by the hand every step of the way; one hour at a time, one day at a time, one month at a time one, and one year at a time. Would that be "The Hand of God Program," wanna join? Thank you, Father God! John 8:31-32...Jesus said, "If you hold to my teachings, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."
I urged Kim to participate in a 12 step program and to get connected in a good church, however my advice fell to a deaf ear. Instead she was held captive by strongholds and lies, trying to battle an earthly authority that was beyond her will and her power. 1 John 3:7-8 Dear children, do not let anyone lead you astray. He who does what is right is righteous, just as he is righteous. He who does what is sinful is of the devil, because the devil has been sinning from the beginning. The reason the Son of God appeared was to destroy the devil`s work.
Father God, I love Kim so much....... it is so painful to know what is happening to her, Father I pray that you will send angels to rescue from from the evil grip that Satan has on her. Father God, please protect my baby girl! Father you are the great physician please heal her brokenness and restore her for your glory. PLEASE FATHER! Father, I pray that you will prepare Kim`s entire family to the fight for her life! Philippians 4:13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Psalm 103:2-5 Praise the LORD; O my soul, and forget not all his benefit---who forgives all your sins and heals all your disease, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desire with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle`s.
Thank you for this time with you Father God......I pray that anyone who reads this will pray for "My Baby Girl, Kim." thank you, AMEN, Linda
Friday, November 18, 2011
Compromise Day 368
2 Timothy 1:7 For God did not give us the spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and self-discipline.
Within the first few days of working at the Generation Station, I realized that it just didn`t seem to be the right fit for me. Having never had my own children or ever worked with children, perhaps being thrown into the mix of an after-school program, wasn`t the ideal place for a 60 year old novice to begin. My heart was in the right place but not much else! The lack of respect for authority, property and for one another, that I witnessed from these middle-schoolers proved to be more than I was willing to tolerate. Maybe, I was just experiencing generational changes that appalled and depressed me! Father God, this generation needs you!
Perhaps, I was in a bottom of the totem pole position that offered only limited time and opportunity to truly minister to the children; delivering me feelings of frustration, boredom and ineffectiveness. I felt lost and stifled as I tried to joyfully fill my glorified job of baby-sitting for a group of middle schoolers. Don`t get me wrong, this 12 year old program is very successful and has benefited lots of children, but not sure it`s where I need to be!
The question that I find myself pondering is, did I truly and sincerely pray and listen to God about this job? Or did I take this position to pacify my hubby`s desire for me to have a job? How do we truly know when we are functioning in the will God or merely satisfying our earthly needs! Where my immediate feelings of frustration an indication of a poor choice and or disobedience to God? Was God trying to teach me something? Did I get it?
Isaiah 30:1 "Woe to the obstinate children," declares the LORD, "to those who carry out plans that are not mine, forming an alliance, but not by my spirit, heaping sin upon sin;
Hum, I certainly wasn`t a walking example of the fruits of the spirit.....love, peace, patience.....maybe I didn`t listen to God! Satan was trying to whisper in my ear, but I didn`t listen! Father God, thank you for loving me and for allowing us do-overs! Tuesday is my last official day at Generation Station however, I feel lead to volunteer there one day a week on Wednesdays. I pray that this day will allow me to walk in your glory and to overflow with your love and mercy.
Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
As a volunteer, my first project is to take children to a new evening contemporary church service that begins on November 30th. So far, 11 out of 20ish have expressed an interest to attend! Now this is what I`m talking about, an opportunity to plant a seed! Are there details to work out, oh yea but I`m up for a challenge and the commitment to introduce some middle-schoolers to our Heavenly Father!
Proverbs 22:6 Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it.
Father God, thank you for holding me in your loving arms as I so diligently try to function in your perfect will and plans .....Ephesians 3:20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us. Amen!
Within the first few days of working at the Generation Station, I realized that it just didn`t seem to be the right fit for me. Having never had my own children or ever worked with children, perhaps being thrown into the mix of an after-school program, wasn`t the ideal place for a 60 year old novice to begin. My heart was in the right place but not much else! The lack of respect for authority, property and for one another, that I witnessed from these middle-schoolers proved to be more than I was willing to tolerate. Maybe, I was just experiencing generational changes that appalled and depressed me! Father God, this generation needs you!
Perhaps, I was in a bottom of the totem pole position that offered only limited time and opportunity to truly minister to the children; delivering me feelings of frustration, boredom and ineffectiveness. I felt lost and stifled as I tried to joyfully fill my glorified job of baby-sitting for a group of middle schoolers. Don`t get me wrong, this 12 year old program is very successful and has benefited lots of children, but not sure it`s where I need to be!
The question that I find myself pondering is, did I truly and sincerely pray and listen to God about this job? Or did I take this position to pacify my hubby`s desire for me to have a job? How do we truly know when we are functioning in the will God or merely satisfying our earthly needs! Where my immediate feelings of frustration an indication of a poor choice and or disobedience to God? Was God trying to teach me something? Did I get it?
Isaiah 30:1 "Woe to the obstinate children," declares the LORD, "to those who carry out plans that are not mine, forming an alliance, but not by my spirit, heaping sin upon sin;
Hum, I certainly wasn`t a walking example of the fruits of the spirit.....love, peace, patience.....maybe I didn`t listen to God! Satan was trying to whisper in my ear, but I didn`t listen! Father God, thank you for loving me and for allowing us do-overs! Tuesday is my last official day at Generation Station however, I feel lead to volunteer there one day a week on Wednesdays. I pray that this day will allow me to walk in your glory and to overflow with your love and mercy.
Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
As a volunteer, my first project is to take children to a new evening contemporary church service that begins on November 30th. So far, 11 out of 20ish have expressed an interest to attend! Now this is what I`m talking about, an opportunity to plant a seed! Are there details to work out, oh yea but I`m up for a challenge and the commitment to introduce some middle-schoolers to our Heavenly Father!
Proverbs 22:6 Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it.
Father God, thank you for holding me in your loving arms as I so diligently try to function in your perfect will and plans .....Ephesians 3:20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us. Amen!
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Closet Cleaning Day 367
Monday morning I helped my 89 year old friend, Rose clean out her bedroom closet; what to keep and what to discard. Like most of us, Rose`s closet and bureau draws were packed to overflowing. After hours of sorting and reminiscing, most items returned to their home in the closet, perhaps just neater. Is it that we are so accustomed to and sentimentally attached to our stuff, that we can`t get rid of anything.
Rose openly admitted that she would more than likely not use some stuff, but she just couldn't`t part with it. Is it the same with the closets of our souls. Do we hang onto our stuff; pain, resentment, bitterness, shame, guilt, revenge, fear, rejection, insecurity, jealousy, hatred, anger and unforgiveness, even though we`ve outgrown many of them. Is it their familiarity, comfort and our control that prevents us from a deep cleaning. It might not be good stuff but it`s "my stuff."
Psalms 139:13-16 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother`s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
If God knows every nook and cranny of our existence why are we compelled to hang on to our stuff? Does it have something to do with "faith and trust"? Just happen to find, principles for Freedom in Christ, 1. Confess the general areas in which you have received freedom positively and gratefully in prayer. Don`t allow one negative though germination space. 2. Meet each new day trusting in God`s power to help you make right choices. Don`t let your feelings deceive you. 3. Expect continuous and increasing freedom where satan has previously bound you or used you for his purposes. Move forward by faith without even a glance over your shoulder at what is now past.
4. Remember, anything the devil whispers in your ear is a lie. When satan speaks he is a liar and father of it. 5. Use the name of Jesus, the Blood of the Lamb, and your confession of faith against all satan`s temptations and condemnation. All condemnation comes from satan. 6. Avoid deliberate sin--like the plague. 7. Rely upon the Holy Spirit to control your life, your emotions, your desires and your imagination, together with your will, by deliberately giving Christ lordship over them each day. 8. Take time to make time to read--learn---meditate on God`s Word. 9. Beware of thinking you can make it alone. You never will make it alone in life because God never intended you should. Be smart: admit you can`t do it by yourself, and then do all things with HIS help! Only God can fill that God-shaped hole in your heart, not stuff, good or bad!
Psalms 139:24 See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
Father God will you help me clean my closets? I`m ready to get rid of more stuff! Father, thank you for the years of love and friendship from Sweet Little Rose, I am so blessed to have the time to help her.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Robin, July 16th 1969 Day 366
In the early 60`s a young family with five children enjoyed the simplicity of their lives; the hard working father and stay-at-home mother did their best raising their offspring, 3 boys and 2 girls. Their loving family environment more that made up for their modest existence; their needs were always met. It wasn’t until later in life that I realized one thing was missing in our family; we did not have God in our lives! Oh yea, occasionally neighbors took us to church but God was rarely mentioned at home. I just didn’t know much about him or how much he loved me or the true reason for his son’s existence.
Life was a much safer and a slower pace than today; we never ever locked our house or cars. As children we were safe to play outside for hours, you never heard of abductions. Kids didn’t bully one another, or take deadly weapons to school. School days began with the pledge of Allegiance to the flag and the Lord’s Prayer.
After a nightly home cooked dinner, our family would gather around the one and only television and watched family shows together. Sunday night was always the best, Walt Disney, Davey Crocket and the Ed Sullivan Show Variety Show. In 1963 when President Kennedy was assassinated in Dallas, I remember the terror and fear when they made the announcement at school. For days to follow, as a family, we watched the live funeral of our youngest president.
In 1964 we all gathered around the TV and watched the first United States` appearance of the Beatles. Music changed forever from that very moment; the beginning of Beatle Mania “I Want To Hold Your Hand,” I fell in love with their drummer, Ringo! What an exciting time to be a teenage!
The only time that we played inside was because of inclement weather, if the sun was shining, summer or winter we were outside from morning till dusk. Living by a huge pond provided hours and hours of exploring and excitement. Swimming, fishing, row boating, ice skating and sledding occupied hours and hours. Not to mention baseball, riding bikes, hiding seek, and just playing together; with a family of five children it was always easy to occupy our time. Remember, there were no computers or video games!
My brother, Robin was the family trickster, he loved to irritate and play jokes on everyone. I remember one time when he wrapped a dead snake around the steering wheel of my brother Ernie’s new shiny red Ford. Robin hid, so that he could witness Ernie’s terror when he discovered his slimy passenger, Ernie hated snakes. Robin ran with joy and ornery delight as his big brother tired in vain to catch him.
After I got my license, my mom bought me a $200 car, imagine that a reliable, good running car for $200. Now we didn’t have to ride bus. Nearly every morning I found myself impatiently waiting on Robin. One morning, apparently after someone had driven my car, I found the bench seat too far away, for me to safely reach the gas pedal.
The trouble with a bench seat was that it required cooperation and team work from the passenger and driver to move it forward. As usual Robin was making us late; I pleaded with him to help me move the seat forward, however he had a different plan. In his normal annoy my sister mindset and devilish attitude, he offered no assistance. As I struggled to adjust the seat, Robin laughed and stretched his feet out straight making my task impossible. After what seemed like an eternity, realizing he had successfully driven me insane, he helped me adjust the seat.
On evening when my boyfriend arrived to pick me up for our date, he was drenched by a bucket of water that Robin and my youngest brother Danny had rigged up from the upstairs window. You never knew what prank Robin would think of next!
Aside from his ornery tormenting personality Robin was a very loving compassionate hardworking brother. Robin loved tinkering with his mini bike and had an amazing coin collection. He also loved rabbit hunting with my dad, he a pretty good shot with his 410 rifle. He was also a good shot with his BB gun; I recalled being accidentally shot in the back of head. I remember one time while hunting with my dad, I had successfully walked on the top rail of a fence, and I dared Robin to do the same. Of course, he accepted my challenge; however he wasn’t as agile as his older sister. I got scolded later that evening, when my mom had to take Robin to the doctor to close the gapping hole in the back of his head that required 9 stitches! I felt really bad!
Robin just loved teasing and annoying his brother and sisters, but we all loved one another and would have done anything to protect one another from any danger or harm. One weekend Robin and I joined friends to attend a local carnival. Seven of us piled in their car like sardines (remember no seat belts) to hang-out and enjoy the evening. As we started home and crossed route 40, a drunk driver ran the light slamming into the side of our vehicle, flipping us over. The last thing that I remember were the bright lights heading right for us, realizing that the car was not going to stop. Hours later I woke up in the hospital emergency room with cuts and broken bones that required a 3 week stay in the hospital. Six out of seven of us were treated for cut and bruises. Thank God, no one was critically injured.
My brother Robin was thrown from the car and was the only one to escape unharmed; I was later told that they had to forcefully hold him back, because he was going to get his sister out of that car!
On July fourth, 1969 our entire family enjoyed a huge fireworks display that was put on by the duPont family. They invited families and friends from the nearby community to share in their festive celebration and incredible firework display. This was the largest real life fireworks display that we had ever seen! Robin was so excited; he said that he couldn’t wait for next year!
Even though Robin was very intelligent he was never fond of school, he just didn’t apply himself. The last time that I saw Robin, he was sitting straight and tall in the window seat of the school bus, returning from summer school. I recall looking up, spotting him, then said out loud, “there goes my brother.” Little did I know what would happen only hours later!
Early evening on July 16th, we got one of those phone calls that you never expect to receive. Robin was working on the same farm where just 12 days ago we had celebrated our best ever, 4th of July; he was baling hay and riding on the fender of a gigantic farm tractor. We were only told that there was an accident; we were instructed to meet the ambulance at the hospital. Remember, there was no cell phones, this accident happened in the middle of a field probably a half a mile from the nearest phone.
Frantically, we followed instructions and started the half an hour drive to the hospital. I recalled, for probably for the first time in my life I cried out to God, begging him for my brother to be alright. When we arrived at the hospital, the ambulance had not yet arrived, adding more fear and questions, how bad was this accident?
Moments later the ambulance arrived, as I stood in shock in the hallway, my brothers pale lifeless body was wheeled right past me! This moment changed my life and the lives of my entire family forever. Robin pasted away about 10 minutes before the ambulance arrived at the hospital. He died of massive internal injuries caused when the huge tractor rolled over his 15 year old body; Robin was way too young to die!
The shock and the grief were overwhelming; by the time we arrived home, family and friends met us there. They showered us with God’s love and amazing grace, how did they find out so fast? The next few weeks were like a terrible nightmare, how could such a terrible tragic accident happen to our family? How did my mother and father have the strength to bury their son?
So many unanswered questions: Is Robin in heaven with Jesus? When I called out to God, did he send angels to comfort and care for Robin? Did angels escort him to heaven? During his funeral service when my sister Joyce asked, Robin if you understand why we are here and what’s going on, please let me know. Suddenly, the church window slammed shut, scaring everyone making them nearly jump out of their seats. Did Robin acknowledge her questions by persuading an angel to cause this loud unnerving interruption? It’s comforting to believe, that Robin was watching from heaven, rolling in laughter with his ornery grin from ear to ear! When I spotted Robin, as the school bus whizzed down 213 earlier that day, was it a gift from God? I can still see him sitting up so straight and tall!
On July 20 1969, hours after Robin’s funeral our family once again gathered in front of our TV, this time we watched history being made, as the first man walked on the moon….. I wonder if Robin had a front row seat. “One giant step for mankind,” and “one very sad day for the remaining Frazer family.”
42 years later I’m still facing unanswered questions, why now is God bringing this memory to life and requiring me for the first time to write and share this entire family tragic story? Why did Jodi reluctantly select a story that brought this memory to life? Why did hearing that story bring me to tears after so many years? Will the pain every go away? Is there still healing that God knows that I need? Someday will Robin welcome me at heaven`s gate?
Does this have something to do with my purpose at Generation Station? Do I see my brother Robin in the eyes and faces of every child there? Especially R J, Kyle and Quron? Do all of the children there realize how very precious life is and how quickly it can change? Do they truly love their siblings, family and friends and let them know? But most importantly, do they know how much God loves them? Do they know that Jesus suffered and died on the cross for everyone of them? Father God, please use me for your glory!
Father God, I pray for the safety and protection for every child that attends Generation Station, I pray that they receive the gifts of your grace and mercy! I pray that they know and receive, Jesus Christ as their savior. I also pray that someday, I will greet each and every one of them at Heaven’s Gate and that I can personally introduce them to my brother, Robin. Father God, no hurry on this prayer, please let it be in your time!
Father God, thank you for calling my attention to the unforgiveness that I still held onto for Larry, the tractor driver; who also invited Robin to work that evening. Until writing this, I never thought about how difficult this terrible accident must have been on him. Thank you for opening my eyes and heart to the necessary forgiveness. Father God, please forgive me; in the release of this unforgiveness, please allow me to move closer to you! Thank you, for requiring me to write and share the tragic family story. I love you so much, thank you for knowing me so well! Amen, Linda
Life was a much safer and a slower pace than today; we never ever locked our house or cars. As children we were safe to play outside for hours, you never heard of abductions. Kids didn’t bully one another, or take deadly weapons to school. School days began with the pledge of Allegiance to the flag and the Lord’s Prayer.
After a nightly home cooked dinner, our family would gather around the one and only television and watched family shows together. Sunday night was always the best, Walt Disney, Davey Crocket and the Ed Sullivan Show Variety Show. In 1963 when President Kennedy was assassinated in Dallas, I remember the terror and fear when they made the announcement at school. For days to follow, as a family, we watched the live funeral of our youngest president.
In 1964 we all gathered around the TV and watched the first United States` appearance of the Beatles. Music changed forever from that very moment; the beginning of Beatle Mania “I Want To Hold Your Hand,” I fell in love with their drummer, Ringo! What an exciting time to be a teenage!
The only time that we played inside was because of inclement weather, if the sun was shining, summer or winter we were outside from morning till dusk. Living by a huge pond provided hours and hours of exploring and excitement. Swimming, fishing, row boating, ice skating and sledding occupied hours and hours. Not to mention baseball, riding bikes, hiding seek, and just playing together; with a family of five children it was always easy to occupy our time. Remember, there were no computers or video games!
My brother, Robin was the family trickster, he loved to irritate and play jokes on everyone. I remember one time when he wrapped a dead snake around the steering wheel of my brother Ernie’s new shiny red Ford. Robin hid, so that he could witness Ernie’s terror when he discovered his slimy passenger, Ernie hated snakes. Robin ran with joy and ornery delight as his big brother tired in vain to catch him.
After I got my license, my mom bought me a $200 car, imagine that a reliable, good running car for $200. Now we didn’t have to ride bus. Nearly every morning I found myself impatiently waiting on Robin. One morning, apparently after someone had driven my car, I found the bench seat too far away, for me to safely reach the gas pedal.
The trouble with a bench seat was that it required cooperation and team work from the passenger and driver to move it forward. As usual Robin was making us late; I pleaded with him to help me move the seat forward, however he had a different plan. In his normal annoy my sister mindset and devilish attitude, he offered no assistance. As I struggled to adjust the seat, Robin laughed and stretched his feet out straight making my task impossible. After what seemed like an eternity, realizing he had successfully driven me insane, he helped me adjust the seat.
On evening when my boyfriend arrived to pick me up for our date, he was drenched by a bucket of water that Robin and my youngest brother Danny had rigged up from the upstairs window. You never knew what prank Robin would think of next!
Aside from his ornery tormenting personality Robin was a very loving compassionate hardworking brother. Robin loved tinkering with his mini bike and had an amazing coin collection. He also loved rabbit hunting with my dad, he a pretty good shot with his 410 rifle. He was also a good shot with his BB gun; I recalled being accidentally shot in the back of head. I remember one time while hunting with my dad, I had successfully walked on the top rail of a fence, and I dared Robin to do the same. Of course, he accepted my challenge; however he wasn’t as agile as his older sister. I got scolded later that evening, when my mom had to take Robin to the doctor to close the gapping hole in the back of his head that required 9 stitches! I felt really bad!
Robin just loved teasing and annoying his brother and sisters, but we all loved one another and would have done anything to protect one another from any danger or harm. One weekend Robin and I joined friends to attend a local carnival. Seven of us piled in their car like sardines (remember no seat belts) to hang-out and enjoy the evening. As we started home and crossed route 40, a drunk driver ran the light slamming into the side of our vehicle, flipping us over. The last thing that I remember were the bright lights heading right for us, realizing that the car was not going to stop. Hours later I woke up in the hospital emergency room with cuts and broken bones that required a 3 week stay in the hospital. Six out of seven of us were treated for cut and bruises. Thank God, no one was critically injured.
My brother Robin was thrown from the car and was the only one to escape unharmed; I was later told that they had to forcefully hold him back, because he was going to get his sister out of that car!
On July fourth, 1969 our entire family enjoyed a huge fireworks display that was put on by the duPont family. They invited families and friends from the nearby community to share in their festive celebration and incredible firework display. This was the largest real life fireworks display that we had ever seen! Robin was so excited; he said that he couldn’t wait for next year!
Even though Robin was very intelligent he was never fond of school, he just didn’t apply himself. The last time that I saw Robin, he was sitting straight and tall in the window seat of the school bus, returning from summer school. I recall looking up, spotting him, then said out loud, “there goes my brother.” Little did I know what would happen only hours later!
Early evening on July 16th, we got one of those phone calls that you never expect to receive. Robin was working on the same farm where just 12 days ago we had celebrated our best ever, 4th of July; he was baling hay and riding on the fender of a gigantic farm tractor. We were only told that there was an accident; we were instructed to meet the ambulance at the hospital. Remember, there was no cell phones, this accident happened in the middle of a field probably a half a mile from the nearest phone.
Frantically, we followed instructions and started the half an hour drive to the hospital. I recalled, for probably for the first time in my life I cried out to God, begging him for my brother to be alright. When we arrived at the hospital, the ambulance had not yet arrived, adding more fear and questions, how bad was this accident?
Moments later the ambulance arrived, as I stood in shock in the hallway, my brothers pale lifeless body was wheeled right past me! This moment changed my life and the lives of my entire family forever. Robin pasted away about 10 minutes before the ambulance arrived at the hospital. He died of massive internal injuries caused when the huge tractor rolled over his 15 year old body; Robin was way too young to die!
The shock and the grief were overwhelming; by the time we arrived home, family and friends met us there. They showered us with God’s love and amazing grace, how did they find out so fast? The next few weeks were like a terrible nightmare, how could such a terrible tragic accident happen to our family? How did my mother and father have the strength to bury their son?
So many unanswered questions: Is Robin in heaven with Jesus? When I called out to God, did he send angels to comfort and care for Robin? Did angels escort him to heaven? During his funeral service when my sister Joyce asked, Robin if you understand why we are here and what’s going on, please let me know. Suddenly, the church window slammed shut, scaring everyone making them nearly jump out of their seats. Did Robin acknowledge her questions by persuading an angel to cause this loud unnerving interruption? It’s comforting to believe, that Robin was watching from heaven, rolling in laughter with his ornery grin from ear to ear! When I spotted Robin, as the school bus whizzed down 213 earlier that day, was it a gift from God? I can still see him sitting up so straight and tall!
On July 20 1969, hours after Robin’s funeral our family once again gathered in front of our TV, this time we watched history being made, as the first man walked on the moon….. I wonder if Robin had a front row seat. “One giant step for mankind,” and “one very sad day for the remaining Frazer family.”
42 years later I’m still facing unanswered questions, why now is God bringing this memory to life and requiring me for the first time to write and share this entire family tragic story? Why did Jodi reluctantly select a story that brought this memory to life? Why did hearing that story bring me to tears after so many years? Will the pain every go away? Is there still healing that God knows that I need? Someday will Robin welcome me at heaven`s gate?
Does this have something to do with my purpose at Generation Station? Do I see my brother Robin in the eyes and faces of every child there? Especially R J, Kyle and Quron? Do all of the children there realize how very precious life is and how quickly it can change? Do they truly love their siblings, family and friends and let them know? But most importantly, do they know how much God loves them? Do they know that Jesus suffered and died on the cross for everyone of them? Father God, please use me for your glory!
Father God, I pray for the safety and protection for every child that attends Generation Station, I pray that they receive the gifts of your grace and mercy! I pray that they know and receive, Jesus Christ as their savior. I also pray that someday, I will greet each and every one of them at Heaven’s Gate and that I can personally introduce them to my brother, Robin. Father God, no hurry on this prayer, please let it be in your time!
Father God, thank you for calling my attention to the unforgiveness that I still held onto for Larry, the tractor driver; who also invited Robin to work that evening. Until writing this, I never thought about how difficult this terrible accident must have been on him. Thank you for opening my eyes and heart to the necessary forgiveness. Father God, please forgive me; in the release of this unforgiveness, please allow me to move closer to you! Thank you, for requiring me to write and share the tragic family story. I love you so much, thank you for knowing me so well! Amen, Linda
Monday, October 24, 2011
"LOVE" Day 365
John 3:16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
Love, that four letter word, twice this week I heard the Greek words and their definitions of love. Hum, twice in just a matter of days, perhaps this is a topic that God wants me to write about! Here goes.
Pastor Jack came to Generation Station to share a love lesson with the kids; actually he and his wife Jodi, tagged teamed the assignment Early in the week Jodi read a story about love and Jack used it to bring meaning to the defination. Great team those two, a pastor and wife who have a passion and love for the children at Generation Station!
Jack presented three Greek words for love; first Eros-- it describes all emotional love: the feeling of love. Eros love is that insatiable desire to be near the target of this love. You got it, the Cupid kind of love! The exciting, passionate, nervous feelings that sweep over people in the appropriate circumstances. The kind of love that says "I love how you make me feel." However, as an emotion, Eros changes, sometime suddenly.
Next, Philos-- brotherly or friendship love, describes the love between two people who have common interest and experiences, or a fondness for. Philos steadily grows, like a building being constructed stone by stone. For this reason, when close friend are separated for a while and reunited, they will often say, "it is like we picked up exactly where we left off." 2 Samuel 1:26 I grieve for you, Jonathan my brother; you were very dear to me. Your love for me was wonderful, more wonderful than that of women.
Now Agape is the ultimate love. Agape love is entirely about the lover, and has nothing whatsoever to do with the one loved. Agape love, in its purest form, required no payment of favor in response. This is the most common word for God`s love for us, unconditional.....Isaiah 54:10 Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace removed, says the LORD, who has compassion on you.
It was delightful to watch the kids respond to Pastor Jack; they were full of enthusiasm and excitement as they answered and asked questions. Perhaps, displaying the need and desire for male and fatherly interaction in their lives. I pray that they will come to realize how much their heavenly father loves them, maybe I`ll be able to drop a few hints and clues!
Friday evening, as the wedding coordinator at our church, I listened to Pastor Bill, as he officiated the wedding of Amy and Charles. Once again, I heard the familiar definition of love and three Greek words, Eros, Philos and Agape; Pastor Bill used them to describe the types of love that these newlyweds would experience. The reading of E.E Cumming`s poem, I Carry Your Heart With Me, the same poem the groom recited for his bride when he asked for her hand in marriage, led me to believe that this newlywed couple understands and appreciates their love for one another. I pray for decades and decades of love and happiness for Amy and Charles.
Really, God twice in 3 days! Is there some message in this for me? Saturday morning in a act of Agape love, I took 5 kids from the Generation Station, kayaking. The beautiful fall morning started in a circle of prayer, as I thanked God for the day, and asked for His blessings! Immediately, Philos love came into play, as cousins Zakeres and Keyares decided that they would share the two man tandem kayak. Even though, kayaking together adds a sense of security, it definitly requires cooperation and team work. Also for me, this required patience, teaching and adequate communication skills , thank you Father God, no doubt a life lesson for my behalf.
Taylor, Courtney and RJ experienced the freedom of a solitary kayaking journey and left us behind. Tom, the owner of the kayaks, and I soon agreed that tandem kayaking was perhaps a little too difficult for the novice kayakers. However they had to work it out, and I was the instructor. Paddle left, paddle right together, paddle left, paddle right.......great job girls!
Once everyone got the hang of it we were off on an amazing journey; I even got to explain to Courtney an Agape love lesson. I shared that Mr. Tom and I freely shared our time and his kayaks, so that they could enjoy a kayaking experience. We merely wanted them to experience the thrill and beauty of God`s creations from a kayak. Thank you, God for my long-time friend, neighbor and school mate, Tom Bramble.
Courtney also shared that she experienced and felt brotherly love or Philos love during our time of prayer! Her brother, RJ held her hand tightly and lovingly as I prayed. She commented that just never happens, "I love my brother so much!" Thank you, God. As we returned to the ramp, I required everyone to personally thank, Mr Tom, also to help load and secure the kayaks. More team work and cooperation; I believe that everyone, including myself and Mr Tom, enjoyed this adventure in kayaking and love lessons, thank you father God.
1 Corinthians 3:6-9 I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God made it grow. So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow. The man who plants and the man who water have one purpose, and each will be rewarded according to his own labor. For we are God`s fellow workers; you are God`s field, God`s building.
Father God, I thank you for my job at Generation Station, I pray that you will continue to allow me into the lives of these children. Thank you for the lessons that you so graciously called to my attention. Thank you for your Agape Love.
Proverb 19:23 The fear of the LORD leads to life: Then one rest content, untouched by trouble.
For me, fear of the LORD is my personal desire to listen for instruction, corrections and eagerness to please my Heavenly Father, thank you LORD! AMEN.....
Love, that four letter word, twice this week I heard the Greek words and their definitions of love. Hum, twice in just a matter of days, perhaps this is a topic that God wants me to write about! Here goes.
Pastor Jack came to Generation Station to share a love lesson with the kids; actually he and his wife Jodi, tagged teamed the assignment Early in the week Jodi read a story about love and Jack used it to bring meaning to the defination. Great team those two, a pastor and wife who have a passion and love for the children at Generation Station!
Next, Philos-- brotherly or friendship love, describes the love between two people who have common interest and experiences, or a fondness for. Philos steadily grows, like a building being constructed stone by stone. For this reason, when close friend are separated for a while and reunited, they will often say, "it is like we picked up exactly where we left off." 2 Samuel 1:26 I grieve for you, Jonathan my brother; you were very dear to me. Your love for me was wonderful, more wonderful than that of women.
Now Agape is the ultimate love. Agape love is entirely about the lover, and has nothing whatsoever to do with the one loved. Agape love, in its purest form, required no payment of favor in response. This is the most common word for God`s love for us, unconditional.....Isaiah 54:10 Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace removed, says the LORD, who has compassion on you.
It was delightful to watch the kids respond to Pastor Jack; they were full of enthusiasm and excitement as they answered and asked questions. Perhaps, displaying the need and desire for male and fatherly interaction in their lives. I pray that they will come to realize how much their heavenly father loves them, maybe I`ll be able to drop a few hints and clues!
Friday evening, as the wedding coordinator at our church, I listened to Pastor Bill, as he officiated the wedding of Amy and Charles. Once again, I heard the familiar definition of love and three Greek words, Eros, Philos and Agape; Pastor Bill used them to describe the types of love that these newlyweds would experience. The reading of E.E Cumming`s poem, I Carry Your Heart With Me, the same poem the groom recited for his bride when he asked for her hand in marriage, led me to believe that this newlywed couple understands and appreciates their love for one another. I pray for decades and decades of love and happiness for Amy and Charles.
Really, God twice in 3 days! Is there some message in this for me? Saturday morning in a act of Agape love, I took 5 kids from the Generation Station, kayaking. The beautiful fall morning started in a circle of prayer, as I thanked God for the day, and asked for His blessings! Immediately, Philos love came into play, as cousins Zakeres and Keyares decided that they would share the two man tandem kayak. Even though, kayaking together adds a sense of security, it definitly requires cooperation and team work. Also for me, this required patience, teaching and adequate communication skills , thank you Father God, no doubt a life lesson for my behalf.
Taylor, Courtney and RJ experienced the freedom of a solitary kayaking journey and left us behind. Tom, the owner of the kayaks, and I soon agreed that tandem kayaking was perhaps a little too difficult for the novice kayakers. However they had to work it out, and I was the instructor. Paddle left, paddle right together, paddle left, paddle right.......great job girls!
Once everyone got the hang of it we were off on an amazing journey; I even got to explain to Courtney an Agape love lesson. I shared that Mr. Tom and I freely shared our time and his kayaks, so that they could enjoy a kayaking experience. We merely wanted them to experience the thrill and beauty of God`s creations from a kayak. Thank you, God for my long-time friend, neighbor and school mate, Tom Bramble.
Courtney also shared that she experienced and felt brotherly love or Philos love during our time of prayer! Her brother, RJ held her hand tightly and lovingly as I prayed. She commented that just never happens, "I love my brother so much!" Thank you, God. As we returned to the ramp, I required everyone to personally thank, Mr Tom, also to help load and secure the kayaks. More team work and cooperation; I believe that everyone, including myself and Mr Tom, enjoyed this adventure in kayaking and love lessons, thank you father God.
1 Corinthians 3:6-9 I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God made it grow. So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow. The man who plants and the man who water have one purpose, and each will be rewarded according to his own labor. For we are God`s fellow workers; you are God`s field, God`s building.Proverb 19:23 The fear of the LORD leads to life: Then one rest content, untouched by trouble.
For me, fear of the LORD is my personal desire to listen for instruction, corrections and eagerness to please my Heavenly Father, thank you LORD! AMEN.....
Friday, October 21, 2011
Really, Father God? Day 364
Matthew 5:6 Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled. Just what is the thirst for righteousness? My handy-dandy reference book lead me to this---definition of righteous man; Psalm 1:13 Blessed is a man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinner or sit in the seat of mocker. But his delight is in the law of the LORD, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers.
Father, what is it that you are walking me through? Again this week I struggled with my job at the Generation Station, you would think that a job working at an after school program for middle school children would be a piece of cake. We start the day with prayer, there is structure, rules for disciple and relaxed atmosphere. However I struggled with feelings of resentment, boredom and frustration as I impatiently wait for the 4 1/2 hour days to pass. I found myself asking, really God is this where I need to be? To make matters worse several friends have asked, what the matter you? You look really tired, are you OK? Satan smiles with delight, waiting to seize the moment.
No! I`m not OK, I`m have trouble obeying God! Yes, I have prayed, a lot! I just don`t like God`s answer! I`m hearing that He wants me to remain in this job and receive the lessons that He`s trying to teach me! Perhaps, patience's, and a non-judgemental spirit and he wants me to do it with the heart of a loving faithful servant. Alrighty then, Father God you are large and in charge! I desire to function in your will for my life, therefore with your help and continued prayer, I will be molded and shaped into the righteous joy filled daughter that you created me to be. I will receive with an attitude of gratitude. Thanks for listening Father God, I feel better already.
Father, what is it that you are walking me through? Again this week I struggled with my job at the Generation Station, you would think that a job working at an after school program for middle school children would be a piece of cake. We start the day with prayer, there is structure, rules for disciple and relaxed atmosphere. However I struggled with feelings of resentment, boredom and frustration as I impatiently wait for the 4 1/2 hour days to pass. I found myself asking, really God is this where I need to be? To make matters worse several friends have asked, what the matter you? You look really tired, are you OK? Satan smiles with delight, waiting to seize the moment.
No! I`m not OK, I`m have trouble obeying God! Yes, I have prayed, a lot! I just don`t like God`s answer! I`m hearing that He wants me to remain in this job and receive the lessons that He`s trying to teach me! Perhaps, patience's, and a non-judgemental spirit and he wants me to do it with the heart of a loving faithful servant. Alrighty then, Father God you are large and in charge! I desire to function in your will for my life, therefore with your help and continued prayer, I will be molded and shaped into the righteous joy filled daughter that you created me to be. I will receive with an attitude of gratitude. Thanks for listening Father God, I feel better already.Psalm 116:1-6 I love the LORD, for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy. Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live. The cords of death entangled me, the anguish of the grave came upon me: I was overcome by trouble and sorrow. Then I called on the name of the LORD: "O LORD, SAVE ME!" The LORD is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion. The LORD protects the simple hearted; when I was in great need, he saved me.
You know if I had listened to God years ago, I believe that I would have made better choices, however I wouldn`t have the testimony that I share for HIS GLORY! Thank you for never giving up on me, Father God. AMEN!
You know if I had listened to God years ago, I believe that I would have made better choices, however I wouldn`t have the testimony that I share for HIS GLORY! Thank you for never giving up on me, Father God. AMEN!
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Psalm 139 Day 363
After just 2 full weeks at my new job at Generation Station, I`m questioning God about my purpose for being there? Or am I just complaining and resisting the humbling lessons that He is walking me through? Psalm 139:1-4 O LORD, you have searched me and know me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from far away. You search out my path and my laying down, and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue, O LORD, you know it completely. Really, Father God you already knew we would have this conversation; are you merely reminding me that you are large and in charge? Yes, I know that I have free will, but I have also learned that I don`t always make the best choices without first consulting you!
5-6 You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is so high that I cannot attain it. Father God, does that mean that my pea-brain can`t even fathom the wonders that you have planned for me?
7-10 Where can I go from your spirit? Or where can I flee from your presence? If I ascend to heaven, you are there; if I make my bed in Sheol, you are there. If I take the wings of the morning and settle at the farthest limit of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me fast. Father God, thank you for never leaving me, I`ve gotten used to having you to love and trust! 11-12 If I say, "Surely the darkness shall cover me; and the light around me become night," even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is as bright as the day, for darkness is as light to you. Father God, as I listened to strongholds and lies the spirit of evil tried to gain ground in my soul, attempting to distract me from the job that you have set before me. I thank you, for the truth has set me free. Yes, I was tempted but not held in bondage, I know the joy of your love and understanding and I know to turn to your word, the BIBLE.
13-18 For it was you who formed my inward parts; you knit me together in my mother`s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; that I know very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depth of the earth. Your eyes beheld my unformed substance. How weighty to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! I try to count them--they are more than the sand; I come to the end--I am still with you. Thank you, Heavenly Father, yes you only create the best and I am made in your image, to bring you glory here on earth. You know me from the inside out there is nothing that I can say, think or feel that you don`t already know about me! Father, as I sit here and write I feel the presence of your love surrounding me, bringing me great inner peace, thank you.
19-22 O that you would kill the wicked, O God, and that the bloodthirsty would depart from me----those who speak of you maliciously, and lift themselves up against you for evil! Do I hate those who hate you, O LORD? And do I not loath those who rise up against you? I count them my enemies. Father, have you placed me at Generation Station to let the light of your love shine into the darkness in which your precious children abide. Have you placed me in their midst as a grandmother figure for your honor and glory? Are there lessons of good and bad that I need to share? Will my testimony and great faith in you penetrate their souls? Father, how will you use me?
23-24 Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my thoughts. See if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. Glorious God, thank you for this time to share my thoughts with you, please continue to correct my faults for your glory, use me up! Your daughter, Linda!
Father God, thank you for your words, yes I see that they are just as effective today as when they where written. Amen.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Fisher of Men Day 362
Matthew 4:18-19 As Jesus was walking beside the Sea of Galilee, he saw two brothers, Simon called Peter and his brother Andrew. They were casting a net into the lake, for they were fishermen. "Come, follow me," Jesus said, "and I will make you fishers of men."
In the early morn, as the sun peeked through the trees in the east, more than 100 fishermen and women prepared to cast off, for the 3rd Cat Fish Tournament on the Bohemia River. Scotman`s Creek was alive with energy and excitement, as the 8:00AM start time approached. There was an air of secrey as coolers containing bait, which might land the biggest catfish, were loaded onto boats of all sizes. Of course, there were coolers of beer and some hard stuff, for the captains and crew to enjoy; drinking and fishing seem to go hand in hand, at least in Earleville. Five and a half years ago, I would have also celebrated the day with several drinks, Father God, thank you for the gift of sobriety! I wonder if the fishermen in Jesus` day also tipped a few?
What a beautiful picture perfect fall day, thank you God! Aside from the delight of this fantastic day, the fisher folks were also competing for big bucks! The $10 entry fee, per person would be divided 8 ways to provide considerable winning pots for the biggest cat fish. After 6 hours of fishing, the anglers would return to the dock for the official weigh-in. Not to mention a feast, consuming the fresh catch of the day, and other delicious goodies!
As I enjoyed hustle and bustle of the morning, I prayed silently that God would protect the fishermen and their crafts and allow their safe return. However, I did find the time to pray with one fisherman personally, Chuckie Matthew. Not really sure why, we were both in just the right spot at just the right time. Probably, a God-thing and I obeyed! As I approached Chuckie, and reached for his hands and offered to pray, he was a little hesitate, to say the least. "Now you probably just jinked me!" Unwilling to accept Chuckie`s negative comment, I maintained great faith in God and prayer.
After hours of fishing and several beers, Chuckie`s attitude changed about prayer when he collected $200 for captaining the boat that caught the most catfish! He was happy to share with others the fact that I had taken care of him, with early morning prayer. I didn`t pray that Chuckie would win, I just prayed for blessings and safety; I love it when God shows off her His glory. Did I just receive one of my favorite God-winks?
Later in the day, Chuckie shared that he really believes in prayer, but God never seems to answer! With the seeds that where planted today, perhaps it will open the window of opportunity for Chuckie and I to continue this conversation. Father God, I pray for my friend Chuckie and his family, especially his son; and I pray that you will open Chuckie`s heart and soul to truly receive the gifts of your mercy and grace. John 1:16 From the fullness of His grace we have all received one blessing after another.For the next cat fishing tournament I`m thinking of setting up a prayer station! Any takers???? My hubby, Rick is in the blue tee shirt and Chuckie in right behind him, in the chamo jacket! Amen.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Fantastic Weekend! Day 361
Proverbs 10:5 He who gathers crops in summer is a wise son, but he who sleep during the harvest is a disgraceful son.
I just love the fall, it has forever been for me a time of great energy and restoration. The cool crisp mornings invigorating my sluggish soul, demanding a fresh start. As Christians we walk the walk of renewal and restoration until the day we die, trusting God to direct our steps. Hebrew 11:8 By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going.
This weekend was just such a weekend for Rick and I; both of us stepped out in faith and followed God`s lead. I attended a 2 day seminar training for advanced Sozo training, in a tiny town in the middle of no-where, Greenwood De. For 2, 8 hour sessions with great enthusiasm and desire to be obedient, I listened, took notes, asked questions and enjoyed what I learned. When, where and how will God have me use this training, not really sure! But when it`s time for the harvest, I`m ready, bring it on Father God! 2 Corinthians 5:7 We live by faith, not by sight.
Rick also stepped out of his comfort zone this weekend, by accepting an invitation to attend the Walk to Emmaus. Thursday evening I dropped him off at Camp Pecometh, for a 72 hour retreat. As he left behind his cell phone and walked through the door, he had no clue what God had in store for his journey. There is an air of secrecy about the weekend; there are certain events and happening that mere words can not do justice; the secrets are disclosed as the weekend progresses. The weekend is an experience of God`s love offered by the body of Christ that serve our LORD.
The majesty of the weekend returned to me a husband that had truly been touched by the hand of Jesus. He`s different from the inside out. A soothing peace and tranquility that in our 23 years together I have never witnessed. He`s different, he got it! He said, "it`s good stuff, really good stuff, don`t know why I waited so long to go!" Five years of praying to be exact, but as I am so often reminded, all things are in God`s time, not mine. He`s in control and I`m not!
Monday evening, by phone, as Rick encouraged our friend Dave to accept the invitation for the Walk to Emmaus, I gently and lovingly wiped the tear from his face. It`s good stuff. Dave, you gotta go!
I look forward to serving God with my husband Rick at my side! Thank you, Father God for the lessons of love, trust and faith that allow us to walk hand in hand for your glory!
Psalm 34:1-3 I will extol the LORD at all times; his praise will always be on my lip. My soul will boast in the LORD; let the afflicted hear and rejoice. Glorify the Lord with me; let us exalt his name together.
Let`s go Rick, I love you....Amen
I just love the fall, it has forever been for me a time of great energy and restoration. The cool crisp mornings invigorating my sluggish soul, demanding a fresh start. As Christians we walk the walk of renewal and restoration until the day we die, trusting God to direct our steps. Hebrew 11:8 By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going.
This weekend was just such a weekend for Rick and I; both of us stepped out in faith and followed God`s lead. I attended a 2 day seminar training for advanced Sozo training, in a tiny town in the middle of no-where, Greenwood De. For 2, 8 hour sessions with great enthusiasm and desire to be obedient, I listened, took notes, asked questions and enjoyed what I learned. When, where and how will God have me use this training, not really sure! But when it`s time for the harvest, I`m ready, bring it on Father God! 2 Corinthians 5:7 We live by faith, not by sight.
Rick also stepped out of his comfort zone this weekend, by accepting an invitation to attend the Walk to Emmaus. Thursday evening I dropped him off at Camp Pecometh, for a 72 hour retreat. As he left behind his cell phone and walked through the door, he had no clue what God had in store for his journey. There is an air of secrecy about the weekend; there are certain events and happening that mere words can not do justice; the secrets are disclosed as the weekend progresses. The weekend is an experience of God`s love offered by the body of Christ that serve our LORD.
The majesty of the weekend returned to me a husband that had truly been touched by the hand of Jesus. He`s different from the inside out. A soothing peace and tranquility that in our 23 years together I have never witnessed. He`s different, he got it! He said, "it`s good stuff, really good stuff, don`t know why I waited so long to go!" Five years of praying to be exact, but as I am so often reminded, all things are in God`s time, not mine. He`s in control and I`m not!
Monday evening, by phone, as Rick encouraged our friend Dave to accept the invitation for the Walk to Emmaus, I gently and lovingly wiped the tear from his face. It`s good stuff. Dave, you gotta go!
I look forward to serving God with my husband Rick at my side! Thank you, Father God for the lessons of love, trust and faith that allow us to walk hand in hand for your glory!
Psalm 34:1-3 I will extol the LORD at all times; his praise will always be on my lip. My soul will boast in the LORD; let the afflicted hear and rejoice. Glorify the Lord with me; let us exalt his name together.
Let`s go Rick, I love you....Amen
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Back To Work Day 360
Psalm 90:17 May the favor of the LORD our God rest upon us; establish the work of our hands for us---yes, establish the work of our hands.
After 14 months of not working nor collecting unemployment, many things in our lives have changed. Primarily our spending habits, for the better I must admit! During the past 14 months we have loosened the burden of a credit card existence. What a sense of freedom, it can be done! Thank you God, for removing the scales from our eyes and wallets. We buy what we need, not what we think we want, to quote my dear friend Gina, our needs are being met.
As a result of this new financial strategy, I have the opportunity to take a part-time job at a local ministry for middle school children. Generation Stations is an after school program that enriches the lives of children in my home town, who attend the same school that I graduated from over 40 years ago, Bohemia Manor! This 12 year old facility operations on grants and local donations from churches, United Way and Cecil Human service Agency, providing a free safe environment for children after school. Studies show that, left unsupervised while most parents work, within this free time students are more likely to try smoking, alcohol, drug and sex. Generation Stations provides a safe haven while including homework and instructional time to help students reach their academic potential.
As I desire to walk the path and purpose for my life, I believe that God will use me in a mighty way in this ministry. I certainly have walked the walk and have the God-given desire to talk the talk for His glory. Am I paid, a huge salary, no way.....but after only 2 days with the children, I know that I will receive more than money can buy!
Today, at the National Day of Prayer at the Pole, at Bohemia Manor I received an amazing blessing. As the buses arrived for school, one of the young ladies that attends Generation Stations, joined our circle of prayer. I had my back to her and didn`t see her approaching, but I felt a comforting presence, as she gently slide her small young hand into mine. Holy Spirit goosebumps covered my body! I lead the prayer circle into a request for God`s blessings and favor for the Generation Station! Thank you, God for my young friend and new job; I look forward to your plans and purpose.
Gotta to work! Thank you God for your faithfulness.......AMEN!
After 14 months of not working nor collecting unemployment, many things in our lives have changed. Primarily our spending habits, for the better I must admit! During the past 14 months we have loosened the burden of a credit card existence. What a sense of freedom, it can be done! Thank you God, for removing the scales from our eyes and wallets. We buy what we need, not what we think we want, to quote my dear friend Gina, our needs are being met.
As a result of this new financial strategy, I have the opportunity to take a part-time job at a local ministry for middle school children. Generation Stations is an after school program that enriches the lives of children in my home town, who attend the same school that I graduated from over 40 years ago, Bohemia Manor! This 12 year old facility operations on grants and local donations from churches, United Way and Cecil Human service Agency, providing a free safe environment for children after school. Studies show that, left unsupervised while most parents work, within this free time students are more likely to try smoking, alcohol, drug and sex. Generation Stations provides a safe haven while including homework and instructional time to help students reach their academic potential.
As I desire to walk the path and purpose for my life, I believe that God will use me in a mighty way in this ministry. I certainly have walked the walk and have the God-given desire to talk the talk for His glory. Am I paid, a huge salary, no way.....but after only 2 days with the children, I know that I will receive more than money can buy!
Today, at the National Day of Prayer at the Pole, at Bohemia Manor I received an amazing blessing. As the buses arrived for school, one of the young ladies that attends Generation Stations, joined our circle of prayer. I had my back to her and didn`t see her approaching, but I felt a comforting presence, as she gently slide her small young hand into mine. Holy Spirit goosebumps covered my body! I lead the prayer circle into a request for God`s blessings and favor for the Generation Station! Thank you, God for my young friend and new job; I look forward to your plans and purpose.
Gotta to work! Thank you God for your faithfulness.......AMEN!
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Family Ties Day 359
Questions, so many questions about the generations before me and how they profoundly effected who I am, why I am, the way I am. My dad was born in 1914, yikes that will soon be 100 years, an entire century, how did that happen? Recently with help from my cousin, John and second cousin Kathy, whom I`ve only met via facebook, we are beginning the quest to fill in the blanks. So much valuable history, family secrets and stories untold.
Perhaps the true reason that I struggled with turning 60 was the reality of the lack of longevity in my family tree. Not only did I recently see photos of my paternal grandparents for the very first, I also learned that my grandfather died at age 66, the exact same age that my dad passed. Is that a co-inky-dink? My grandfather died 3 years before my birth. My grandmother died in her 50th year of life, thirteen years before my arrival. Sure am glad I found this out a decade after my 50th birthday, I may that been concerned and anxious about my 51 birthday. Thank you, God!
As I stared into the faces of my grandparents picture, tears streamed down my cheeks, for the love that I had missed. Even though it`s difficult to mourn something you`ve never had, my heart and soul ached. What were they like, what grandparent life lessons had I missed. How much love had been stolen from my existence? How would my life have been effected by their touch? Was there a gigantic void left for my young parent to fill? Where they capable of replacing the love, compassion, patience and wisdom of grandparents? Guess I`ll never know! However, there is one thing that I know for sure, any love deprivations that I may have suffered has been filled by my heavenly Father. Thank you, God for loving me and calling me to desire you, sorry I took so long to respond! Yes, indeed you are filling the void, are you my grandGod or pop-popGod or poppa-God? That`s a comforting image!Luke 11:9-10 So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who ask receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be open.
Thank you Father God, you have not only opened the door, you have advanced me to the accelerated course of desire, guess I have lots to catch up on! You`re an amazing Pop-pop! I love you.
As John, Kathy and I seek, I pray that we will find answers regarding our heritage and family history, the good, the bad and the ugly. John 8:32 Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.
Any Frazers, Bouldens, Mcclearys, or Guhls reading, love to hear from you!
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Dianna Day 358
Job 6:14 A despairing man should have the devotion of his friends, even though he forsakes the fear of the Almighty.
I wouldn`t say that Dianna had forsaken the Lord, she was just disconnected, she needed to plug into the Mighty Power of our God Almighty. Road trip! Early one morning we headed south down route 301, to visit my beloved friend and mentor Miss Jackie, at the Kent Island United Methodist Church.
Dianna assured me that she had great faith in God and prayed regularly, my dad`s a pastor! Still I believed that something separated her from truly receiving God`s intended blessing. She knew the words of God in her head, but not her heart! Because of the three major back surgeries, in one year for degenerated disk disease, she allowed herself to dwell in hopelessness; receiving a sentence that may eventually lead to a wheel-chair existence. My 45 year old friend lived in constant pain and agony, allowing and opening the door for the darkness to invade her soul. Depression, pain, anger, fear, hopelessness, negativity and envy penetrated and possessed her thoughts, why me! Psalm 38:7-8 My back is filled with searing pain; there is no health in my body. I am feeble and utterly crushed; I groan in anguish of heart.
Hello, Miss Jackie we`re here for the healing prayer and connection that your Sozo Ministry provides. Thank you, God, thank you God, I was blessed to be Miss Jackie`s assistant! Is this what you`ve been preparing me for, Father God? Hebrew 11:8 By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going.
For 2 and half hours Miss Jackie, Dianna and I faithfully prayed and responded to the power of the Holy Spirit, Jesus and Almighty God. Tears, buckets of tears flowed as the Holy Spirit released Dianna from strongholds and lies that had bound her thoughts and body. In awe of mighty God, I witnessed the peace of God transform and renew Dianna`s body and soul. Thank you, God we have a "connection" and I helped! All praise and glory to God the Father. Thank you, thank you for directing and using us for your GLORY! Jeremiah 17:14 Heal me, O LORD, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for you are the one I praise.
Ephesians 1:18-21 I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is like the working of his mighty strength, which he exerted in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every title than can be given, not only in the present age but also in the one to come....PRAISE THE LORD!!!!
Did I witness a DIVINE HEALING, I believe so.....as Dianna and I walked yesterday this is what she shared. "I used to feel like I was carrying and dragging behind me heavy back-packs, I was always rushing full speed ahead. After the surgeries I was stopped dead in my tracks; the load shifted landing right in front of me, preventing me from moving forward! I was trapped.
The weight is gone, I feel new, better and improved with innocence and child-like faith restored, as if the film is removed from my eyes and the SON is shining on my face! It is as though my hearing was intenified and I hear more clearly. The constant pain is gone, leaving behind only a small occasional twinge, as a reminder. My husband says that I`m taller and straighter; I pray to slowly wean off the pain medicines and overdose on GOD. You know, this reminds me of a message that demanded my attention, that my father delivered; Don`t Let 12 Inches Keep You From Heaven! The distance from your head to your heart."
Was it a co-inky-dink that I pulled into Dianna`s driveway several weeks ago to renew a friendship, or was I responding in obedience to God`s direction? I believe, that I just received one of my favorite God winks! Thank you Father God, you are so amazing, thank you for loving me and healing my wonderful friend, Dianna. Thank you for Miss Jackie, for her faithful desire to teach, share and witness for your glory! It is my prayer that you are preparing me to walk in her footsteps of faith.
Can I explain how or why this gift of healing was granted, no but I know that I worship and have faith in a MIGHTY POWERFUL GOD, and I do not question His power and Heavenly authority! I just say thank you, God.......Luke 6:18-19 who had come to hear him and to be healed of their disease. Those troubled by evil spirits were cured, and the people all tired to touch him, because power was coming from him and healing them.Gotta go, meeting Dianna to walk a brisk 5 miles today! Yes, Dianna will walk the walk and talk and talk for GOD`S GLORY! Amen........need an extension cord?
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Praying Mantis Day 357
I`ve included some interesting facts about this praying-like critter. The praying mantis is named for its prominent front legs, which are bent and held together at an angle that suggests the position of prayer. The larger group of these insects is more properly called the praying mantids.
By any name, these fascinating insects are formidable predators. They have triangular heads poised on a long "neck," or elongated thorax. Mantids can turn their heads 180 degrees to scan their surroundings with two large compound eyes and three other simple eyes located between them.
Typically green or brown and well camouflaged on the plants among which they live, mantis lie in ambush or patiently stalk their quarry. They use their front legs to snare their prey with reflexes so quick that they are difficult to see with the naked eye. Their legs are further equipped with spikes for snaring prey and pinning it in place.
Moths, crickets, grasshoppers, flies, and other insects are usually the unfortunate recipients of unwanted mantid attention. However, the insects will also eat others of their own kind. The most famous example of this is the notorious mating behavior of the adult female, who sometimes eats her mate just after—or even during—mating. Yet this behavior seems not to deter males from reproduction.
Even though the praying mantis will turn and eat there own, they have survived because that`s how God made them. They where created in His love with a purpose and a plan for their existence; surviving to glorify God. Weren`t we also created with the same plan and purpose? Now to the question of the day, who was created first, man or the praying mantis?????
Deuteronomy 4:32 Ask now about the former day, long before your time, from the day God created man on the earth; ask from one end of the heavens to the other. Has anything so great as this happened, or has anything like it ever been heard of?
Thank you Father God, I love your sense of humor, it would be nice to turn my head 180 degrees like the praying mantis, but I like me just the way you created me! Psalm 139:14 I will praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your words are wonderful, I know them full well..... Thank you for loving me! Psalm 9:1-2 I will praise you, O LORD, with all my heart; I will tell of all your wonders. I will be glad and rejoice in you; I will sing praise to your name, O Most High. AMEN.
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