Really, Father God? Day 364

Matthew 5:6  Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.  Just what is the thirst for righteousness?  My handy-dandy reference book lead me to this---definition of righteous man; Psalm 1:13  Blessed is a man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinner or sit in the seat of mocker.  But his delight is in the law of the LORD, and on his law he meditates day and night.  He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither.  Whatever he does prospers.

Father, what is it that you are walking me through?  Again this week I struggled with my job at the Generation Station, you would think that a job working at an after school program for middle school children would be a piece of cake.  We start the day with prayer, there is structure, rules for disciple and relaxed atmosphere.  However I struggled with feelings of resentment, boredom and frustration as I impatiently wait for the 4 1/2 hour days to pass.  I found myself asking, really God is this where I need to be?   To make matters worse several friends have asked, what the matter you?  You look really tired, are you OK?   Satan smiles with delight, waiting to seize the moment.

 No!  I`m not OK, I`m have trouble obeying God!  Yes, I have prayed, a lot!  I just don`t like God`s answer!  I`m hearing that He wants me to remain in this job and receive the lessons that He`s trying to teach me!  Perhaps, patience's, and a non-judgemental spirit and  he wants me to do it with the heart of a loving faithful servant.   Alrighty then, Father God you are large and in charge!  I desire to function in your will for my life, therefore with your help and continued prayer, I will be molded and shaped into the righteous joy filled daughter that you created me to be.   I will receive with an attitude of gratitude.   Thanks for listening Father God, I feel better already.

Psalm 116:1-6  I love the LORD, for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy.  Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live.  The cords of death entangled me, the anguish of the grave came upon me: I was overcome by trouble and sorrow.  Then I called on the name of the LORD: "O LORD, SAVE ME!"  The LORD is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion.  The LORD protects the simple hearted; when I was in great need, he saved me.

You know if I had listened to God years ago, I believe that I would have made better choices, however I wouldn`t have the testimony that I share for HIS GLORY!  Thank you for never giving up on me, Father God. AMEN!