Family Ties Day 359

Psalms 133:1-3  How good and pleasant it is when brothers live together in unity!  It is like precious oil poured on the head, running down on the beard, down upon the collar of his robes.  It is as if the dew of Hermon were falling on Mount Zion.  For there the LORD bestows his blessing, even life forevermore.

Questions, so many questions about the generations before me and how they profoundly effected who I am, why I am, the way I am.  My dad was born in 1914, yikes that will soon be 100 years, an entire century, how did that happen?  Recently with help from my cousin, John and second cousin Kathy, whom I`ve only met via facebook, we are beginning the quest to fill in the blanks.   So much  valuable history, family secrets and stories untold.

Perhaps the true reason that I struggled with turning 60 was the reality of the lack of longevity in my family tree. Not only did I recently see photos of my paternal grandparents for the very first, I also learned that my grandfather died at age 66, the exact same age that my dad passed.  Is that a co-inky-dink?  My grandfather died 3 years before my birth.  My grandmother died in her 50th year of life, thirteen years before my arrival.  Sure am glad I found this out a decade after my 50th birthday, I may that been concerned and anxious about my 51 birthday.  Thank you, God!

As I stared into the faces of my grandparents picture, tears streamed down my cheeks, for the love that I had missed.  Even though it`s difficult to mourn something you`ve never had, my heart and soul ached.  What were they like, what grandparent life lessons had I missed.  How much love had been stolen from my existence?  How would my life have been effected by their touch?  Was there a gigantic void left for my young parent to fill?  Where they capable of replacing the love, compassion, patience and wisdom of grandparents?  Guess I`ll never know!  However, there is one thing that I know for sure, any love deprivations that I may have suffered has been filled by my heavenly Father.  Thank you, God for loving me and calling me to desire you, sorry I took so long to respond! Yes, indeed you are filling the void, are you my grandGod or pop-popGod or poppa-God?  That`s a comforting image!

Luke 11:9-10  So I say to you:  Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.  For everyone who ask receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be open.

Thank you Father God, you have not only opened the door, you have advanced me to the accelerated course of desire, guess I have lots to catch up on!  You`re an amazing Pop-pop!  I love you. 

As John, Kathy and I seek, I pray that we will find answers regarding our heritage and family history, the good, the bad and the ugly.    John 8:32  Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.

Any Frazers, Bouldens, Mcclearys, or Guhls reading, love to hear from you!