Revelation 7:9-10 After this I looked and there before me was a great multitude that no one could count, from every nation, tribe, people and language, standing before the throne and in front of the Lamb. They were wearing white robes and were holding palm branches in their hands. And they cried out in a loud voice; "Salvation belongs to our God, who sits on the throne, and to the Lamb.
For decades, the true meaning of Easter, never truly penetrated my soul. Like many, I heard the stories of Jesus and his sacrifice for our sins, but it just never hit home with me! I lacked faith, teaching and a valid relationship with Jesus; I believed, but I had not received!
I thank God, for removing the obstacles that prevented me from receiving his grace. By the grace of God go I! Grace his free gift, absolutely, positively free, received by faith.
As I reflect on my walk, their were gigantic obstructions of lies and strongholds, that prevented me from receiving, and living the life of grace and mercy that God desired for me. Once I surrendered, my will to the will of God, he began to work on me from the inside out. In depth healing, in God`s perfect timing, is a vital step in receiving our salvation.
Psalm 103:8-12 The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love. He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever; he does not treat us as our sins deserves or repay us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west has he removed our transgressions from us.
Had I read and believed Psalm 103:8-12, perhaps 35 year of my life would have been different, but that wasn`t the case. After graduating from high school, I made a decision with my one and only boyfriend, Brice, to terminate an unwanted pregnancy.
If only, I knew then what I know now....but! Our 6 year courtship lead us into a marriage that was based on lies guilt and shame, soon ending in divorce, after just 2 years.
At the time, I had no clue the devastation this would cause in my life. I erroneously believed that I would carry on with life, and live happily ever after. Not...the guilt and shame of the abortion, consumed my existence; allowing satan to take possession of my soul.
Even though I remarried, I was never able to conceive a child again. There were no medical reason for the inability. According to specialists, my body produced antibodies that killed sperm. Really, how could that be possible; had my self-inflicted guilt and shame, allowed my mind to sabotage my body?
Kind of seemed that way, especially when Brice fathered a child, with his new wife! I was convinced that God was punishing me, and me alone for our terrible choice. Had Jesus died on the cross for the forgiveness of every ones sin but mine?
Satan delighted in the fear and lies that kept God at bay. Alcohol allowed me to endure the pain and guilt that consumed me. I never even shared this horror with my own mother. The pain, was hidden and camouflaged, with a fake happy face smile, while I was dying from the inside out. For decades, I lived in this self imposed agony and bondage, believing that I was sentenced to hell.
Once I invited God to take control, He straightened out my "stinkin thinkin." Yes, it has been a process, but the depth of his love and compassion have brought "light and truth" to replace lies. I know, I believe and I have received the gift of JESUS CHRIST.
Jeremiah 17:14 Heal me, O LORD, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for you are the one I praise.
If you a trapped in lies and bondage, I encourage you to reach for the hand of Jesus and receive! Holy week, what a great opportunity to begin your process of healing and salvation. You are alive to thrive, Jesus is the way and the light, please receive God`s gift!
Revelation 1:17-18 When I saw him, I fell at his feet as though dead. Then he placed his right hand on me and said; "Do not be afraid, I am the First and the Last. I am the Living one; I was dead, and behold I am alive for ever and ever! And I hold the keys of death and Hades."
Who`s driving you or Jesus???????????????
i love ya aunt lin! ur the best aunt! and i still mean that! time and distance can never take away what we had, the ride to dover with you and mom! the talks at the sub shop, the pickle bucket! im glad ur at a great point in ur life!
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