Monday, January 31, 2011

God, Is that Really You? Day 267

I first met Tori when she came to Curves in 2006. She and her boyfriend, Miles where new to the area, she was hired by the local school system to begin her career as an art teacher. She and Miles moved from their families in Pennsylvania; wedding plans were in the near future.

Genesis 2:23-24 The man said, "This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called woman, for she was taken out of man." For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh.

Tori and I soon developed a bond of love and trust, as we shared the secrets of addiction. As a work in progress in my recovery, I opened the doors of my heart and soul, as I openly admitted the truth of my well keep secret. Tori was touched by my honesty, and shared that she too had connect to alcohol addiction; her future husband was also a recovering alcoholic.

Psalm 17: 1 Hear, O LORD, my righteous plea; listen to my cry. Give ear to my prayer--it does not rise from deceitful lips.

Knowing the death grip of this addiction, I wanted to scream to her, run for your life! Instead, God had a different plan. Miles was celebrating a short period of sobriety, when he was invited by friends to join them in a get-away guy weekend, celebration for a bachelor party. Tori feared that Miles was not prepared for this sort of outing; he assured her that he could handle it!

Even though I had not yet met Miles, his success and confidence in his recovery, gave me great faith and encouragement for my own recovery!

Isaiah 41:13 For I am the LORD, your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.

Tori`s greatest fears were realized the night that she received the phone call, from Miles, as he sat in a small cell. No he couldn`t handle it! He allowed himself to join the celebrating with his friends, only to leave angry in a drunken stooper, to drive home. His vehicle was totaled, as it rolled in a one car accident, delivering him to a jail cell and his arrest.

Is it when we rely on our own strength that we open ourselves to lies and destruction that can ruin the plans that God has for us? However, this story does have a happy turn of events. As God so often does, He uses the events of our lives for His glory.

Philipians 4:13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

I finally met Miles after he and Tori were married; Tori introduced her husband the day they walked into church. Miles soon joined the worship team, formed a band, and now travels to churches near and far to share his music and incredible testimony for the glory of God the Father! God delivered Miles and Tori into the open arms of a loving church family, their new family.

Five years of growth and loved shared have quickly passed, Miles and Tori are ones again discerning where God`s is calling them. Miles has an interview for a associate pastor position. If he gets this position, it would mean moving and leaving the comfort zone of their church family and friends.

Miles and Tori are seeking prayers and discernment, as they desire to please God and live in His favor. Yes, it will be hard to bid them farewell, but knowing that God has amazing plans for their lives is so exciting! Is God moving them into the next season of growth for their young lives? Have they completed the work that God planned for them in this area? Will they listen to God`s direction? God often requires us to step out of comfort zones to fulfill His plans for our lives.

Romans 12:10-12 Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.

It is my prayer for Miles and Tori to serve the Lord, wherever, whenever He leads them. My life and our community of faith, in Chesapeake City, Maryland have been truly blessed by their presence! Thank You, God! Amen!

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

FAITH in GOD Day 266

It is with great despair that I share the latest news of my niece Kim, and her struggles while adjusting to her life of sobriety from prescription drugs. Actually, a red flag went up a couple of weeks ago, when I discovered that she had told me a "little white lie".

John 8:32 Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.

A lie, is a lie, is a lie, no shades of black, white or gray are acceptable; when we open the portals of our heart to lies and denial, once again we are giving the sin in us, dominion over our soul.

Kim lost her job at the Hope Center, without going into details, she obviously made some extremely poor choices. Did her poor choices and the lack of desire to face the consequences honestly, begin her downward spirals of lies. If the truth will set you free, then lies will devour and smother your hope.

As I approach the fifth anniversary of my sobriety on February 20, I thank God that after attending only 2 AA meetings, I heard the words that penetrated the ignorance of my addiction. You have to get really honest with yourself; hum, the truth will set you free! I got it!!

Romans 16:20 The God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet. The grace of our Lord Jesus be with you.

Once again Kim`s entire family is drawn into the drama of her lies; questioning her thinking and her sobriety. I humbly thank God, that I can handle this drama; with God`s promises, the only assistance I can offer is to pray fervently. To me, this is validation of my faith and the advancement of my true intimate relationship with God.

Hebrew 10-38 But my righteous one, will live by faith. And if he shrinks back, I will not be pleased with him.

I pray that God will place someone or something in Kim`s life, that will once again, allow her to live in truth. I pray that God will soon be pleased with Kim. I pray that she will hear the same words of wisdom that saved my life from the grip of addiction and lies. You have to get REALLY HONEST with yourself! Amen.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Fasting and Praying Day 265

Daniel 9:3-4 So I turned to the LORD God and pleaded with him in prayer and petition, in fasting, and in sackcloth and ashes. I prayed to the LORD my God and confessed............

On January 9th, I joined thousands of Christians in the 21 day Daniel Fast, I`ve waited 16 days into this fast to share it on the blog. Why, because it is so humbling and personal; I made a covenant with God to deprive my flesh the foods that hamper and restrict the true intention of my heart. I desire a closer more intimate relationship with God the Father.

After months of little to no physical exercise, I have abused this body, that is not my own but on loan from God. How can I expect to respond to God`s call and purpose for my life, if my body is not up for the call? Fasting and praying is a cleansing and restoration.

1Corinthians 6:19 Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.

Packing on 15 pounds since July, I have not honored God with my body! Yes, I had unsuccessfully half-hearted attempted to diet, but Christmas goodies soon overpowered my will power.

This fast is not about dieting, it`s connecting to the power of God through prayer and fast. What is the Daniel fast, it is not eating meats, breads, sweets, or drinking caffeine, eating only fruits, vegetables, beans, and brown rice, drinking water and juices. After 15 days I feel so much better, I had become a life-less slog; with no desire to change. Had I started using food to pacify my addictive traits?

I thank God for the scriptures and the nudge from my Emmaus friend Val, that prompted me to take action. Prayer, planning and preparation have allowed me to stand true to this commitment to Him!

Daniel 1:8 But Daniel resolved not to defile himself with the royal food and wine, and he asked the chief official for permission not to defile himself this way.

Hum, defile according to Webster--to make foul dirty or unclean, to violate the chastity of, to desecrate--the truth hurts, but I was defiling my body!

Galatians 3:3 Are you so foolish? After beginning with the Spirit, are you now trying to attain your goal by human effort?

Not, as followers and believers in Jesus Christ is the progression of our Christian walk hampered by old hurts, habits and hang-ups that lay hold on our lives?

2 Peter 1:3 His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of Him who called us by his own glory and goodness. Amen!

Monday, January 24, 2011

An Evening With Ginger Day 264

Good food, good friends and play-off football games, what a fantastic way to spend an evening; actually our hubbies were more interested in the football than Ginger and I. We were more intent on spending quality time with one another.

If you are new to this blog you can search, Ginger and read her stories and her progression since the stoke she suffered 10 months ago. Ginger, my BFF, and I have been friends for over 50 years. Wow, do we have lots of history!

Ginger has been released by doctors to return to her job as a nurse, however; and what a big HOWEVER! Her skills are still somewhat limited, not permitting her to perform patient care duties. Filing and busy work seem to occupy her work day, calling the question, is she capable of retaining her nursing position. According to her supervisors, they feel that she should consider a new position, or consider early retirement.

Like many baby-boomer, financially early retirement is not an option. What are her options? After farther medical evaluation, it was discovered that the right side of her brain is functioning at a normal level, however the left side is below normal and requires more therapy and time for recovery.

My heart aches for Ginger and her family; more time, more stress, deeper in debt, where can I help? Job 16:20-21 My intercessor is my friend as my eyes pour out tears to God; on behalf of a man he pleads with God as a man plead for his friend.

I was telling Ginger about my friend, Miss Jackie and their healing ministry, in Kent Island UMC; Ginger looked me square in the eyes, with child-like faith, asked if they could heal her brain?

1 Thessalonians 1:3 We continually remember before our God and Father your works produced by faith, your labor prompted my love, and your endurance inspired by hope in our LORD Jesus Christ. Hebrew 2:4 God also testified to it by signs, wonders and various miracles, and gift of the Holy Spirit distributed according to his will.

It is my prayer to God, for my life-long friend, that according to His will, Ginger will continually be healed and embraced in the light of His healing mercy and grace. Amen!

PLEASE INCLUDE MY WONDERFUL FRIEND IN YOUR PRAYERS............

Matthew 7:7-8 Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who ask receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

GOD CAN HEAL THE LEFT SIDE OF GINGER`S BRAIN!

Friday, January 21, 2011

My Testimony Day 263

I`ve been away from my computer for almost a week, I`m feeling the need to chat and share. Guess, I really need the laptop that my husband just ordered! A year ago, if someone had told me that I would be in need of a laptop to write a blog, I would have laughed in their face! I guess God had a different plan!

Proverbs 19:21 Many are the plans in a man`s heart, but it the Lord`s purpose that prevail.

Over the weekend I helped my friend, Lisa conduct a training seminar for evangelism, she asked if I would be willing to share my testimony for training purposes. What is a testimony?

Deuteronomy 8:2 Remember how the Lord your God led you all the way in the desert these forty years, to humble you and to test you in order to know what was in your heart.

Where have I walked, how did I come into a personal relationship with God, and what is the difference since developing that relationship?

I believe with all of my heart, not just my head....but my HEART that Jesus Christ died on a cross for the forgiveness of my sins, and that someday I will live eternally in heaven.

Coming to faith for many is a slow natural process; they were born into a family of believers; that was not the case for me. My mom and dad did not bring their five children up in the church. However, thanks to friends and neighbors, I did occasionally attend church. I know now, that there were seeds of faith planted during those childhood years.

My parents were good honest, hardworking people, we knew about God but had no intimacy or personal relationship with Him. God desires an up close personal relationship. Genesis 2:7 "The LORD God formed the man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being." If God breathed life into our nostrils, I believe that He wants an in your face relationship!

It wasn`t until later in my life that I FINALLY heard and BELIEVED how much GOD loved ME. I truly opened my heart to receive His grace; allowing the seeds of my childhood to take root and blossom.

For nearly 50 years I lived, believing that I was in total control of MY life. I was a good loving, hardworking person with many friends. But the one friend that I didn`t have was Jesus. I had no idea what it felt like to be loved unconditionally by a loving, forgiving God. I JUST DIDN`T KNOW!

For years, I carried guilt and shame because of poor choices and decisions. Often weighed down, stumbling through life, nurturing an addiction to alcohol to pacify SOMETHING that was missing in my life!

I was married to a wonderful husband, had great step-children, grandchildren, and ran a successful business, we had a good life. Still there was SOMETHING missing and I had no clue what it was!

My alcoholism camouflaged the pain and empty feelings of my soul. I could put on the happy face, induced by alcohol and fool the world....life was great! Or was I merely hiding that GOD-SHAPED hole in my HEART?

Along with aging comes the wealth of personal history. We are blessed by events of our lives, the good and the bad. God uses our tests, trails and struggles to teach, nurture and instruct; directing our path of desire for JESUS!

I must admit that in my ignorance of His love; I required several good whacks in the head with His divine baseball bat before the scales were finally removed from my eyes. Eventually allowing my heart and soul to be healed by His unconditional love; HE LOVES ME JUST THE WAY THAT I AM!

On my hands and knees, I surrender my life to GOD begging Him to remove the burdens that I could no longer carry, I invited and received Jesus into my HEART. GOD heard my prayers!

I`m a working in progress and will be until the day that I die; slowly but surely He is peeling through the layers of my very being, restoring me to the daughter that He has ALWAYS loved and adored. I am the daughter of a KING; I am heir to the throne through Christ Jesus.

Psalms 116:1-6 I love the LORD, for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy. Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live. The cords of death entangled me, the anguish of the grave came upon me; I was overcome by trouble and sorrow. Then I called on the name of the LORD; "Oh LORD, save me!" The Lord is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion. The LORD protects the simple hearted; when I was in need, he save me. AMEN

Sounds like, Psalm 116:1-6 is MY testimony, written centuries before my birth! Thank you, God!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, January 14, 2011

Beautiful Flowers Day 262

I`m still unemployed, and loving it, this gift of free time allows me to ponder! In our hurried hectic lives, do we grants ourselves the time to consider any and all things carefully and thoroughly. Ponder, I like that word; you can ponder just about anything!

One of my favorite Christmas gifts to give or receive is an Amaryllis plant. Actually when you receive it, it`s not quiet the beautiful plant that`s pictured on the box. There are several steps necessary before this gift becomes the radiant flower, that is pictured.

The gift contains, a pot, compressed growing matter and a bulb. At first glance, there appears to be little or no life to this pathetic dry root dangling bulb. Upon following careful instruction, this lifeless bulb very quickly produces a 2 foot tall plant that brings to life 2 magnificent red Lily-like flowers.

The joy is watching the rapid growth that morphs this lifeless bulb into a plant of flowering beauty. Once given water and light the plant seems to grow inches over night; within a couple of weeks it explodes into flaming red blossoms.

John 8:12 When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness but will have the light of life."

John 4:13-14 Jesus answered, "Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I gave him will never thirst again. Indeed, the water I give him become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.

Now back to my pondering, as I glance at my 6 inch Amaryllis plant, on the window sill, my heart is filled with great joy, as I anticipate it`s growth and renewal of life to the once life-less bulb. I anxiously await the arrival of the precious life-filled blooms.

Then it hit me, how excited and full of divine joy, God must feel when His precious life-less sheep come into full bloom. Once we receive the incredible gift of His Grace, we produce the magnificent flowers of eternal life. God, renews, restores and refreshes our once life-less soul.

Wow, water me give me light, I like the thought of knowing that I make God smile!

Ecclesiastes 8:15 So I command the enjoyment of life, because nothing is better for a man under the sun than to eat and drink and be glad. Then joy will accompany him in his work all the days of the life God has given him under the sun.

Thank you God, for your love understanding and patience, as I continue to bloom into your precious flower of Jesus Christ. Amen.....

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Are We Listening? Day 261

How many innocent people will die at the hands of those who think that they are god; choosing when and how people should randomly die. Once again as a nation, we are mourning the tragic loss of 6 American citizen at the hand of a crazed gunman.

Whatever the motive, the results are still the same, pain, loss and grief are inflected on the undeserving.

Hosea 4:3 Swearing, lying, and murder, and stealing and adultery break out; bloodshed follows bloodshed.

As a nation, over the last 40 years, we have removed the presences of God, from our daily lives; an ungoldy nation produces, ungoldly people. I wonder what God thinks of our mess; the hatred, lack of LOVE for one another. Maybe, just maybe He would be willing to listen to our cries for mercy! Remember we are, ONE NATION UNDER GOD!

Psalm 6:8-10 Depart from me, all you workers of evil for the LORD has heard the sound of my weeping. The LORD has heard my supplication; the LORD accepts my prayer. All my enemies shall be ashamed and stuck with terror; they shall turn back, and in a moment be put to shame.

Just as my own walk with God, it was times of great struggle and loss that I fell to my knees, pleading with God to remove the burdens that I could not longer carry. Is God using our Nations times of struggles and loss to call American to their knees? Prayer is our only defense, JESUS is the way!


Isaiah 65:23-24 They shall not labor in vain, or bear children for calamity; for they shall be offspring blessed by the LORD--and their descendants as well. Before they call I will answer, while they are yet speaking I will hear.


America stop,drop and PRAY, it`s time!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Happy Birthday Robin Day 260

Today would have been my brother Robin`s 56 birthday, had we not received that dreadful phone call. Six months before his 16th birthday, Robin was working on a a local horse farm. A friend asked if he wanted to work overtime, for $2.46 an hour baling hay; Robin eagerly jumped on the chance to earn extra cash.

I had just graduated from high school, still living at home, the phone rang; the call that no family ever wants to receive! Robin was involved in a farming accident, we where instructed to meet the ambulance at the local hospital. Mom, dad and I frantically followed instructions and began the 20 minute drive. I remember asking God to please let Robin be O.K! Was this plea the beginning of my prayer life?

Psalms 34:18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Upon our arrival at the hospital, we learned that the ambulance had not yet arrived. Opening our minds, for more fear and anxiousness to settle in hearts. Where were they, how bad was this accident?

Moments later the emergency room doors opened, the stretcher that carried my brother lifeless body rolled right past our waiting eyes. To this very day, I can still see my brother`s paler that pale body being wheeled to the emergency room. We were soon told that my brother Robin died, approximately 10 minutes before his arrival at the hospital.

The events of this summer day in mid July 1969, changed our family forever. How does a family recover from such a shocking untimely ordeal? Sadly, we did not have a church family or intimate relationship with God, however, as I reflect on this, there is no doubt that God`s prevenient grace was extended to each and everyone of us.

Friends and family flocked to our sides, no doubt responding to God`s call on their lives. Shoulders to lean on, in our time of desperation and loss; love fellowship, food, flowers and lots of prayer for our entire family`s well being.


Isaiah 54:10 Though the mountains be shaken and the hill removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace removed, says the LORD, who has compassion on you.

God used this devastating tragedy in my life to open the portals of my heart; developing and nurturing within me the gift of love, compassion and empathy. At a very young age,the death of my younger brother, Robin brought to life these gifts that other wise may have laid dormant for decades.

Weeks after Robin`s death we received in the mail, his final paycheck, for $2.46. Merely, adding insult and injury to a family`s loss; more than likely done to legally protect his employer. $2.46 a small price to pay for a life time of grief, pain and loss of a young sibling!

I pray that someday, Robin will greet me at Heaven`s Gate. Happy Birthday, Robin. Amen!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Big Fish Day 259

Today, after months and months of little to no exercise, I bundled up and ventured out into the cold for a refreshing walk. Why is it, that we so often refuse to do things that are good for us? Once I started walking, the thrill of the cool crisp air rejuvenated my exercise deprived body.

Since leaving my physically active Little Debbie job, just 6 months ago, I`ve packed on way too many pounds. My clothes are too tight and I feel like a slug. No time like the new year, to start and established a workable exercise routine. How in the world do I expect to work for God, if I can`t get out of my own way!

1 Corinthians 6:19-20 Do you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you received from God. You are not not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore, honor God with your body.

Jesus died on the cross for this body; it is a gift from God, just on loan. Today as I walked, I reprimanded myself for not taking better care of this loaner from God. I know better, but today is the first day, of a commitment to improve the care and health of this loaner.

Sure puts it into a different prospective, when you are borrowing something from God; adding an urgency to do a better job. God must have cringed when I added alcohol to the mix. Thank you, God for loving me through my poor choices.

Jeremiah 21:8 "Furthermore, tell the people, "This is what the LORD says; See, I am setting before you the way of life and the way of death.

I choice life! Back to my walk, I walked to the river leisurely enjoying the day, just me and God! There was a tractor trailer that was loading the fresh catfish catch of a local waterman. Large tanks of live catfish filled the trailer. According to the fisherman, his 4000 pounds of catfish were destine for the Midwest seafood markets. That`s a lot of catfish out of our Bohemia River; maybe next year I will enter the catfishing tournament!

I couldn`t help but wonder what the fisherman would have said to Jesus, if He had invited him to follow Him and become a fisher of men. Would he give up his fishing business, leave his wife and family and follow Jesus? That`s a toughie!

Matthew 4:19-20 "Come, follow me, " Jesus said, "and I will make you fishers of men." At once they left their nets and followed him.

Today, in order to follow Jesus, it merely requires receiving the gift of God`s Son; through faith, by grace we are born again, receiving the promise of eternal life. John 3:3 In reply Jesus declared, "I tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again."

Grace is free gift from God, no strings attached, just good things to come. Love , joy, peace, patience, kindness, gentleness and self-control; I`m loving it, join me, it`s good for you!

Psalms 84:1:2 How lovely is your dwelling place. O Lord Almighty! My soul yearn, even faints, for the courts of the Lord; my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God. Amen!

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Proverbs 4 Day 258

Wisdom Is Supreme, listen, my sons, to a father`s instruction; pay attention and gain understanding.........he taught me and said, "Lay hold of my word with all your heart; keep my commands and you will live. Get wisdom, get understanding; do not forget my words or swerve from them.

As a super power of the world have we paid attention to the simplicity of these words. Or in futile attempt to please everyone, all the time, and to be politically correct, have we removed God from our daily existence! I believe that He is calling all CHRISTIANS to take action!


Nahum 1:3 The LORD is slow to anger and great in power; the LORD will not leave the guilty unpunished. His way is in the whirlwind and the storm, and clouds are the dust of his feet.


As believers in Jesus Christ, we are called to share the good news, not remove it and hide it from future generations, denying and rejecting our faith. Our Savior, Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow, great empires have come and gone but Jesus reins supreme.

Don`t go through life just staring and shaking your heads at current day circumstances. Focus on our amazing God, belong, believe and behave, aways seeking and expecting His presence in all things.

Philippians 4:4-7 Rejoice in the Lord always, I will say it again; Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The LORD is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your heart and your minds in Christ Jesus.

As stewards of the gift of Jesus Christ it`s our job to reveal this majesty to others still in the wilderness of doubt and rejection. In my case, I just didn`t know! For decades, I lived life in my self made cocoon of fears, guilt and shame; knowledge is wisdom. Wisdom is the open door to our salvation.

Acts 16:31 They replied, "Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved--you and your household.

Indeed, coming to faith and total surrender to Jesus, for me came later in life. I write what I`m writing not just because I read it in a book, I`m writing because I know what Jesus is doing in and through me, it is the desire of the Lord!

I started with prayer, I prayed and I prayed and I prayer and I prayed. Pray for your family, your friends, your neighbors, your leaders, your country, your world..... open the doors and God will do the rest. Remember pray to God just like you are talking to your best friend!

Psalm 4:1 Answer me when I call to you, O my righteous God. give me relief from my distress; be merciful to me and hear my prayer. AMEN.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Jillian Day 257

Wow, did I ever learn a difficult lesson because of my granddaughter, Jillian. Jillian spent the night with us Saturday night, her brother Nolan, chose to stay home with mommy and daddy.

We discussed going to church on Sunday, something that Jillian usually enjoys, however, Sunday morning plans where altered. I changed my mind and decided to stay home, reasoning that it was OK. I had gone to a Wednesday service and we were having a stand-in pastor because pastor Amy was sick; the perfect opportunity to play hooky.

The morning seemed to be perfect, I delivered some fruit to "Sweet Little Rose," and enjoyed a short visit. Jillian was watching television, while Rick puttered on the computer. All was well, or so I thought, until the moment when I mentioned the we were not going to church, actually it was way passed the time for service.

Jillian, screamed and yelled at me, demanding to go to church, you promised! Had I ever made the wrong choice! Jillian has the temper of her grandfather, and once the fuse is lit, look out. There was no reasoning with her, she angrily stormed off to her room, slamming and kicking whatever got in her path. It gets ugly!

You would think, that as the adult, I could easily talk to her and explain that I had merely changed my mind. No, that doesn`t work, she started yelling and screaming that she hates me and to leave her alone. Thinking that time alone would allow her to calm down, I left the room as she slammed and locked the door behind me.

Now, Pop enters this disturbance, sparks fly, he`s yelling and blaming me for this eruption. While yelling at Jillian to "unlock" that door! What happened to our peaceful Sunday morning?

Proverbs 19:19-20 A hot-tempered man must pay the penalty; if you rescue him, you will have to do it again. Listen to advice and accept instruction, and in the end you will be wise.

Thankfully, Rick`s temperament has mellowed over the years; I`m sure that he must understand Jillian`s rage better that I do! Thank you, God!

I exited this mess, as he assured Jillian that he`d take her to church. Thinking to myself, really Rick, you know it`s too late for church, you`re just rewarding her for outrageous behavior. This contagious rage had the entire house in an uproar; off they go! I assumed, pop would just take her for a ride and buy her something to pacify her and restore peace.

Rick drove to church, expecting to find all the doors locked tight, then perhaps hoping to reason and comfort Jillian. However, they found the sanctuary door unlocked and entered the empty building. Jillian made her way up the isle and sat in a pew beside, Pop.

Pop and Jillian sat alone, prayed and shared amazing God- time together! Jillian bowed her little head, joined her hands in prayer and ask God to help her control her "hissy fits." Rick said, it was one moment that he will not forget.

Thank you, God! By His grace He can easily turn our mess into a time of divine glory. Was it a co-inky-dink that the door wasn`t locked, or was that one of my favorite God-winks!

You better believe, that I will not make a commitment and change my mind in the presence of my high-spirited granddaughter. Yes, as a family we are all in the learning process and dealing with Jillian`s sudden uncontrollable outburst of frustration! I learned a valuable lesson today, but also felt the presence of Jesus, thank you, God.

Jillian apologized to me for her unappreciated behavior, I accepted her apology and told her how much I loved her. Perhaps there will not be a next time, but just in case, I hope to remain peaceful and not drawn into the fit of rage. I thank God for His blessing in this little family flare up of tempers!

Psalms 60:12 With God we will gain victory, and he will trample down our enemies.

This disturbance started because I changed my mind and Jillian just wanted to go to church, shame on me, God please forgive me. Amen

Reflection Week 38

Thank you, God the for love and mercy that is offered, I personally feel the love that you have so graciously given. Yes, I may stumble but never will I be alone! Thank you, for your unconditional love and yearning within my soul to remain in that love! Thank you for the desire to share this amazing love and hope.

Ephesians 5:8-10 For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light for the fruit of light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth and find out what please the Lord.

Amen!

What`s Required? Day 256

The decade following my surrender, I eagerly grasped the loving hands of Jesus, He met me right where was! No questions asked, full speed ahead 3650 days of intense love and teaching, acquiring Godly wisdom, one day at a time.

Romans 8:1-2 Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.

True confession, yes I did stumble and fall, often not understanding why or what was happening; I did not remain in the clutches of darkness and uncertainty. I had a hand to hold onto that opened doors and windows to promises and clarity.

Psalms 77:1-2 I cried out to God for help; I cried out to God to hear me. When I was in distress, I sought the Lord; at night I stretched out untiring hands and my soul refused to be comforted.

Day by day, I have grown closer and closer to Jesus, witnessing divine miracles,
receiving confirmation that my prayer life has been the most important factor in this relationship development. How in the world did I survive in the cruel world without praying?

2 Chronicles 7:14-15 If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land. Now my eyes will be open and my ears attentive to the prayers offered in this place.

Prayer, a precious tool of connecting and receiving our identity in Jesus! Thank you, God.

A Covenant Prayer.... I am no longer my own, but thine. Put me to what thou wilt, rank me with whom thou wilt. Put me to doing, put me to suffering. Let me be employed by thee or laid aside for thee, exalted for thee or brought low for thee. Let me be full, let me be empty. Let me have all things, let me have nothing. I freely and heartily yield all things to thy pleasure and disposal. And now, O glorious and blessed GOD, FATHER, SON AND HOLY SPIRIT, thou art mine and I am thine. So be it. And the covenant which I have made on earth, let it be ratified in heaven. AMEN!

Sounds like a plan for a new year and a new decade, thank you, God.......